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Without my Mam: Grief when gone too soon - Nikki Whelan
Season 4, Ep. 9
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This is an episode about a daughter, who loves her mother.
3 years ago, Nikki Whelan and her family lost their mum Tina Fitzpatrick to luekemia.
Tina was a young woman, still in her 50’s, and was lost all too soon.
And after a listener asked everymum to cover the topic of mothering without your mother everymum asked Nikki a mum of 3, and owner of Little Bow Pip & Backstreet Dance Studio Dublin to be our guest and share her experience of losing her mam, the grief, the strength and the impact it’s had on Nikki as a mother herself.
Nikki was a mum of 2 when Tina passed away in 2018 but has since had baby Sonny.
She explains the incredible special relationship Tina had with Nikki’s two children and how different the experience of a new baby is without her, how special yet poignant Sonny’s birth was and how while on a family wedding in Portugal, Nikki needed her mam like never before.
We will never stop loving our children and our mothers will never stop loving us.
Even if they are gone too soon.
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