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The DV Survivor - Zoe Marshall

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After 2 years of hosting The Deep and holding space for others, I'm ready to share with you one of the traumas that I lived through. When I was younger, I became a victim of domestic violence. I was manipulated, isolated, physically and sexually abused until I didn't know who I was anymore. But I got out. Somehow. And this is my story.


Sean Szeps holds this conversation. Someone I trust and tell all my secrets to.


Please note. During this chat I may sound guarded or at times unemotional. I know that this is still a trauma response. Because of legal reasons I can't reveal the identity of my abuser so some things need to stay private. It makes this a difficult conversation because I can't share everything that I want to. What I am doing is sharing the full extent of this abusive relationship for the first time ever.


Content warning; This episode discusses domestic abuse, physical and sexual abuse, and suicide. Support resources are listed below.



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