Revolution Church


A Prayer of Doubt and Forsakenness

“There is Nothing Good in Me.” Paul says this in the Book of Romans. On Mental Health Awareness Day, Jay gives one of his most raw and passionate and personal talks about mental health. He opens up about his mental health, and touches on some topics that are universal to everyone struggling with mental health – which shows us we are not alone. He tells us how failing at suicide was the best thing to ever happen to him and he discusses therapy and studying and everything he has done to find the better way to live life on life’s terms. “Depression and mental illness lie to us…we all have those struggles.” Jay also shares how he learned to love the humanity of Jesus and how he never felt closer to Christ, or understood him more, than when he studied Jesus in the garden, and Jesus feeling abandoned on the cross. This illuminating and uplifting talk covers a lot of topics, some light and some heavy, but it leaves us with the most important truth there is – a promise that it gets better. A promise that it is worth it. It’s worth staying alive.

This talk was given on Oct 10, 2021 in Seattle, Washington.




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