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Sex work, Public Shame and Bipolar w/ Amanda

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When journalist Amanda Goff publicly came forward as high-end escort Samantha X in 2014, she made headlines.


She built a public identity around sex work, wrote books about it, and became known for being bold, shameless, and confident. But behind the headlines was addiction, crippling shame and an undiagnosed bipolar disorder.


Now sober and out of the industry, Amanda joins us to talk about the reality behind the reputation. We get into the cost of going public, the life she sometimes wonders she could have had, and what happens when your most private experiences become part of your public identity forever.


*Content warning: This episode discusses extreme mental health crisis scenarios.


SUPPORT RESOURCES:


Emergency & Crisis Support


  1. If you or someone you know is in immediate danger, please call 000.
  2. Lifeline Australia: Call 13 11 14 for crisis support
  3. Beyond Blue Support Service: Call 1300 22 4636 or visit Beyond Blue for online chat and mental health resources
  4. headspace: For young people aged 12 to 25. Visit headspace to find online, phone, and in-person support.


SHOWNOTES


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YouTube: Pathologically Honest

Georgia: @god_worthy on all the things

Amanda: @amandagoffofficial on IG

Amanda's website: https://amandagoff.com.au/


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This episode was recorded on Gadigal Land. Always was, always will be, Aboriginal land.


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