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Tara Hodgson - At Least I'm Trying

When the volleyball hits the floor mere inches from Reese’s hands, her dreams of playing

college ball shatter.


After consecutive failures on the court, in the classroom, and in her relationships, she’s done

playing the part of perfect daughter, perfect student, and perfect athlete. It’s time for a new life.

Enter Cassie Brentwood.



But when Liam’s behaviour grows darker, Reese’s new life begins to unravel. She ignores the

warnings. The red flags. The little voice screaming to her that something’s not right. Until she’s

far from home, trapped in a nightmare she can’t escape.


With no one left to trust, Reese has to fight to reclaim the life she was so eager to leave behind.

She wanted freedom. Now, she just wants to go home.


At least she has to try.


Told with searing honesty and lyrical depth, At Least I’m Trying is a poignant novel about mental

health, girlhood, and what happens when the version of yourself you’ve worked so hard to

become starts to fall apart.Bold. Reckless. Free. Cassie is everything Reese isn’t yet longs to be. They quickly become

friends and Cassie introduces her to Liam, a mysterious guy from Snapchat. Blinded by his love

bombing and the desperation to shed her perfect image, Reese plunges head first into their world.

It feels instantly thrilling… until it’s not.


Girls are disappearing from nearby towns, however no one in their quiet small town seems

concerned.

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