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Late Diagnosis Club: How Tara Survived Without Knowing She Was Autistic

Ep. 17
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In this meeting of The Late Diagnosis Club, Dr Angela Kingdon welcomes Tara for one of the most difficult and important conversations the Club has held.


⚠️ Content notice: This episode includes discussion of violence, sexual abuse, child harm, and coercive control. Listener discretion is strongly advised. Please pause or skip as needed and take care of yourself.


Tara is a late-diagnosed Autistic woman, a mother, and a survivor of severe childhood abuse, abduction, and exploitation. She shares her story not for shock, but to illuminate how Autistic girls and women are uniquely vulnerable — especially when they grow up without protection, language, or recognition of their neurodivergence.


Together, Angela and Tara explore survival as an Autistic trait, truth-telling as both a strength and a liability, vulnerability to cults and exploitative systems, and the long road to healing through prolonged exposure therapy. Tara’s story is harrowing — but it is also a testament to resilience, instinct, and the life-saving power of being believed.


🪑 Attendees

Chair: Dr Angela Kingdon — Author, community-builder, and Autistic advocate

Guest: Tara — late-diagnosed Autistic woman, mother, and survivor

You: The Listener!


🗒️ Meeting Agenda

  • Opening remarks from the Chair
  • Member introduction: Abuse, abduction, and survival
  • Discussion: Autistic vulnerability and coercive control, misdiagnosis, and being labelled a liar
  • Cults, self-help movements, and exploitation
  • Prolonged exposure therapy and Late autism self-recognition
  • Key learnings
  • Club announcements


🧾 Minutes from the Meeting


1️⃣ Opening Remarks

Angela opens the meeting with a clear trigger warning and an explanation of the safeguards taken to ensure this conversation was shared safely and consensually. This episode is framed as difficult — but necessary — for Autistic people, particularly women and girls, whose experiences of abuse are often misunderstood or erased.


2️⃣ Member Introduction: Tara’s Story

Tara describes knowing she was different from early childhood — hyperlexic, highly intelligent, sensory-sensitive, and deeply compliant. As a CODA, she was placed in adult responsibilities far too young, acting as her mother’s ears while navigating an unsafe home environment.


Family members responded to her Autistic traits with punishment and violence rather than protection. Tara was repeatedly locked away, beaten, and labelled with slurs — experiences that primed her for later exploitation.


At 14, Tara was abducted by adults known to her family. She was held, tortured, and left for dead. No search party was launched. No justice followed. Tara survived through instinct, dissociation, and an extraordinary will to live.


3️⃣ Discussion Highlights

  • Autistic vulnerability: How isolation, compliance, and literal trust increase risk
  • Survival instincts: Autism as a tool for endurance and escape
  • Misdiagnosis: Repeatedly labelled with personality disorders
  • Cults and self-help: Seeking safety and meaning in exploitative systems
  • Prolonged exposure therapy: Ten years of structured trauma processing
  • Late autism recognition: Finding language after decades of harm
  • Motherhood: Love, rupture, and intergenerational neurodivergence
  • Justice: Living without it — and learning how to go on


4️⃣ Key Learnings

  • Autistic girls are especially vulnerable when their differences go unprotected
  • Being articulate does not prevent exploitation
  • Truth-telling can be punished in unsafe systems
  • Misdiagnosis can cause as much harm as no diagnosis
  • Self-diagnosis can be life-saving


📣 Club Announcements

🎧 The Late Diagnosis Club is available on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and all major platforms.

💬 Join our online meetups and community at latediagnosis.club.

📌 Check the LDC Notice Board for Member Contributions

💜 There is a small charge — but no one is turned away for lack of funds.


🌈 Celebrate autistic voices with early access, ad-free listening, and our full archive at AutisticCulturePlus.com

🌐 Visit www.autisticculturepodcast.com

📲 Follow us on Instagram: @autisticculturepodcast

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