47 After Midnight

I sit down with NDE researcher David Suich to talk about the old way of leadership unraveling right in front of us. We zoom way out from today's news feeds. From gladiators dying in the Colosseum for entertainment, to the politicians dominating our headlines today... It's amazing how far we've already come, and yet we have much further still to go. We talk about pain as the last language left when wisdom goes unheard, and why the leadership we actually need isn't built on authority at all. It's built on teachers, not rulers. On compassion and reciprocity, rooted in the earth and in each other. Together, we're watching something old die in real time. Something new is starting to grow underneath it.

This one is unpolished and real. Two people, 40 years apart, who've both seen something beyond a life based on making money, talking honestly about it.Doug has lived a lot of lives: corporate manager, permaculture designer, yacht skipper, ranch hand, wedding caterer. Not because he couldn't commit, but because curiosity kept winning.In this conversation, we pull apart the stories most of us inherited about money, safety, and what a life is supposed to look like. And what it quietly costs us to live inside them without ever questioning them.We talk about the moment Doug walked away from a corporate career, why making money felt like "the easy way out", and what permaculture taught him about how humans were never meant to live. We get into the "do-have-be" trap, what ninety-year-olds wish they'd done differently, the myth of retirement, and why reciprocity isn't linear. It's multidimensional.

What happens to your vision of life when everything you built it on falls away? This episode is for anyone in the middle of that collapse (or just emerging from it), asking what comes next and who you actually are now. From the truth quest to the radio static of identity in transition, this is an honest, unpolished exploration. Of what a vision really is, where it comes from, and what becomes possible when you stop building it from fear and start building it from healthy soil. Got something stirring in you? Reach out at tayloranna.garrett@gmail.com. I'd love to hear from you.

Yesterday, after seeing a wildly sexy man embracing pull ups at the street workout park the way I embrace a bar of dark chocolate, I knew I had to publish this. It wasn't so much him as the shirt he was wearing. It said: the balance of opposites. Which is the epitome of rising.When we rise from the ashes (after an all-consuming burnout, a heartbreak, a total loss of identity and vision), it is not a linear process.It can be grueling. There are endless false peaks. And we find ourselves sounding like the kid in the back seat: "Are we there yet?"This episode is the beginning of an answer to that. The balance of your opposites (between old you and the new you that's tip-toeing its way forward) might be the most important thing to know about what it actually means to rise.