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Benedict Allen: Lost and Dying in the Amazon | Lost in the Amazon P1
At just 22 years old, British explorer Benedict Allen set out to travel 600 miles through the remote northeast Amazon. It was supposed to be an expedition. Instead, it became a fight for survival.
Gold miners hunted him. His canoe capsized, swallowing his supplies. Malaria burned through his body — two types of it, including one that could kill him in 24 hours. Starving, feverish and alone, Benedict made a choice that would haunt him for decades.
He eventually walked out of the jungle. But something inside him forced him to confront his near-death experience and a question he needed to answer: why had he lived?
So he went back. Not to the Amazon, not yet, but to Papua New Guinea. There, he immersed himself in a culture that still held ancient rituals of manhood and underwent a secret ceremony alongside young tribal initiates — to be cut, scarred and beaten, and to try to understand what it meant to survive, to be tested and to be transformed.
This is the story of a young man running towards the very thing that nearly killed him. Of unfinished business in the jungle. Of the price of seeking answers that only survival can provide.
And of a man who has nearly died nine times.
This is Part 1 of Benedict Allen's story on What I Survived.
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What I Survived - Season 1
02:22||Season 1, Ep. 0What I Survived explores extraordinary true stories of people who lived through the unthinkable. Each episode begins with who these people were before everything changed, then takes listeners inside the moment their lives were pushed to the edge: shipwrecked at sea for weeks, held captive by terrorists, falling 15,000 feet after a parachute failure, held in Indian prison for 10 years and other extreme, life-or-death situations.Through first-hand accounts, we follow the ordeal as it unfolded, the split-second decisions made under unimaginable pressure, and the sheer will it took to survive. Then comes what happens after: the physical and psychological recovery, and the long process of rebuilding a life forever altered.From the creator of award-winning podcasts One Minute Remaining and Wanted comes... What I Survived
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1. The Robertson Family - 38 days at Sea P1
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3. The Robertson Family - 38 days at Sea P3
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4. Surviving a 15,000 Foot Freefall: Brad's Impossible Story
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6. Pan Am Flight 73: The 1986 Karachi Hijacking P2
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7. Pan Am Flight 73: The 1986 Karachi Hijacking P3
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8. Pan Am Flight 73: The 1986 Karachi Hijacking P4
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