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Dominique Pelicot, the 71-year-old man accused of drugging his wife to sleep and recruiting dozens of men to abuse her for over 10 years, has admitted to all the charges against him in his first testimony since the trial opened on 2 September.

Referring to the 50 co-defendants who are accused of raping his now ex-wife Gisèle, Mr Pelicot said: "I am a rapist like the others in this room."

"They all knew, they cannot say the contrary," he said. Only 15 of the 50 defendants admit rape, with most saying they only took part in sexual acts.

Of his ex-wife, Mr Pelicot said: "She did not deserve this."

"I was very happy with her," he told the court.

Gisèle, who was given the chance to respond shortly after, said: "It is difficult for me to listen to this. For 50 years, I lived with a man who I would've never imagined could be capable of this. I trusted him completely."

Although no cameras are allowed in court, the trial is open to the public at the request of Gisèle Pelicot, who waived her right to anonymity at the beginning of the proceedings. Her legal team said opening up the trial would shift the "shame" back on to the accused.

Mr Pelicot, who is a father and grandfather, began his testimony by telling the court of traumatic childhood experiences and said he was abused by a male nurse when he was nine years old.

When asked about his marriage to Gisèle, Mr Pelicot said he considered suicide when he found out she was having an affair.

Throughout his testimony on Tuesday morning, Mr Pelicot repeatedly assured the court that he never "hated" his wife and was in fact "crazy about [her]... I loved her immensely and I still do."

"I loved her well for 40 years and badly for 10," he added, apparently referring to the decade during which he drugged her and abused her.

He was also asked about the thousands of videos he took of men abusing his unconscious wife. These were found by investigators and were instrumental in tracking down the 50 men who are now accused of rape.

Mr Pelicot recognised he had filmed the men partly for "pleasure," but also "as insurance, since today, it is thanks to [the videos] that we have been able to find the people who took part in this".

Mr Pelicot was then questioned by Stéphane Babonneau, one of Gisèle's lawyers, who asked him why he had been unable to find the will to stop abusing her, even when she started presenting medical problems. In previous sessions of the trial, Gisèle said she was worried she was developing Alzheimer’s or a brain tumour because of hair and weight loss and large memory gaps. These were, in fact, side-effects of the drugs her husband was giving her.

"I tried to stop, but my addiction was stronger, the need was growing," he said.

"I was trying to reassure her, I betrayed her trust. I should've stopped sooner, in fact I should've never started at all."

Mr Pelicot is also accused of drugging and abusing his daughter, Caroline, after semi-naked photos of her were found of his laptop. He has previously denied this and on Tuesday he also stated he had never touched his grandchildren. "I can look my family in the eyes and tell them that nothing else occurred," he said.

Mr Pelicot also said he "became perverted" when, in 2010, he met a male nurse on the internet who suggested he drug his wife with a sedative, explained how to administer it and shared photos of drugged women. "That's when it all clicked," Mr Pelicot said. "Everything started then."

Béatrice Zavarro, Mr Pelicot's lawyer, told French TV that she did not know what people would think of her client, but that he was "sharing his truth".