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Brian Egdorf


Ashley Smiley: You're tuned into 90.7 KALX Berkeley. My name is Ashley Smiley and you're listening to The Graduates, the interview talk show where we talk to graduate students here at UC Berkeley and around the world.

Today I am joined by Brian [Ektorf 00:00:25], a PHD candidate in the Department of Slavic Languages and Literature. Brian, welcome to The Graduates. We are happy to have you here today.

Brian: Hey, how's it going?

Ashley Smiley: It's going pretty good. I thought we'd start with some general information for our listeners. What are Slavic languages?

Brian: So Slavic Languages and Literature is our department, really represents a huge swath of kind of human history and human culture and literature, and also language. I would say that we're really tied through language. The Slavic languages quite simply are a group of languages divided into East, South, and Western Slavic languages. Anything from Czech to Bulgarian, Russian, as everybody has been hearing a lot in the news about, but also Ukrainian of course, and just a whole ton of, kind of shared kind of cultures in this region.

Ashley Smiley: Okay. And have you always been interested in Slavic languages and literature?

Brian: So I think that, you know, as a budding undergraduate many, many years ago I took Russian mostly because I had Ukrainian grandparents growing up and I never spoke Ukrainian. My mother never spoke Ukrainian. But we kind of had this very interesting family, side of the family I would say, that was still kind of connected to these older traditions. Yeah, I guess it is this kind of interesting part of my family that I always wanted to know more about and also speak to. So I know that I have relatives in both Ukraine, Russia, and also across Western Europe, and it was just this very interesting side.

Ashley Smiley: So what do you study here at UC Berkeley? And could you tell us a little bit about the process for studying your subject?

Brian: So yeah, in the realm of Slavic Languages and Literature, you would never imagine that actually a lot of graduate students are working on Russian literature, mostly because again, it is such a huge literary culture and has had such a huge effect, but to be honest, that's where the jobs are today in Russian literature. Unfortunately, it's very challenging I would say to study other Slavic languages, and so that's just academia today. There's less money to go around. And so more students are pushed into certain regions and certain languages.

My interest in Russian was actually primarily in the Russian novels, so that's what I work on today, 19th century novel. I've always been interested in novels and what they do, and the interesting ways that we can use them as a comparison between different national cultures. So my research always kind of reaches into, you know, the English novel, the French novel, those kinds of things. But I've always been interested in the Russian novel because of the complexity of characters, and feelings, and thoughts that those characters have.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah. Could you give us a few examples of some Russian novels that you know, particularly spark your interest?

Brian: So I actually remember the first time I read "Anna Karenina" when I was a, you know, very, you know, 17 year old college student. I was reading it. It was an entire course on this one novel. I remember we had this really terrible blizzard in Bloomington, Illinois when I was reading this novel and I...

Ashley Smiley: How many times did you read this novel?

Brian: I mean it's funny because you know, you read and you reread the same novels, but also you reread some of the same parts, sometimes at the expense of other parts. I've found that maybe one of the difficulties in this field is that we have to teach certain novels and read the certain novels at the expense, maybe of others, you know, interesting texts that might be out there.

But I would say with the Russian novels, I'm endlessly interested in their complexity, especially because I work on things related to character's consciousness. I would say that this is really a broad, you know, broad stroke here, but the complexity of Russian characters allows me to keep rereading them. And if you take a novel like "Crime and Punishment" or "The Brothers Karamazov"...

Actually it's kind of funny, you know, I have an earthquake preparedness kit in my, after one of the earthquakes I was like, "Oh I have to do this."

Ashley Smiley: That' fair.

Brian: And I have some spare contacts, I have you know, maybe, I don't know, pair of glasses, I have, you know, maybe spare pair of underwear or something like that, and I have "The Brothers Karamazov."

I can imagine myself, I always imagine what novel, if I had to pick, would I pick to read over and over again for the rest of my life. Like, you know, house is burning or you know, we have to get on a ship and leave the country, what text would you carry with you?

I was packing to go teach English in France for a year and I could not bring a lot of novels, and this was kind of before the days of like iPads and electronic texts. And so I picked the fifth volume of Proust because I was like so intrigued by this text. And just like in, you know, almost in love with the language and I could imagine myself always returning to those passages. Always returning to those idea no matter where I went. So "The Brothers Karamazov" is now that text. I don't know if that was a great choice and maybe if there was an earthquake I would make a different choice.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah. I want to go back and revisit what you mean by complexity in novels because-

Brian: Yeah.

Ashley Smiley: - that could mean a lot of things and-

Brian: Right.

Ashley Smiley: - in some-

Brian: And it does mean a lot of things.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah. And in some ways I'm wondering, and maybe people in the audience are wondering, how much do you think these novels are influenced by the history that they were created during? For instance, you know, nowadays, especially with what's going on in politics, I feel like a lot of artists or musicians, you know, they use that information and then kind of use like media as a filter to interpret that. And you know, maybe historians from the future will, you know, look back and say, when was this piece of music created? Or when was this book written? Is it useful for you to explore more of like the history that influenced the novels?

Brian: So I think this is actually a very valid and interesting question and I think about it a lot pedagogically when I'm preparing for class, and what am I going to bring to my students to help them understand the major issues that are described in this text.

And clearly like, I think that a valuable investigation of the context, the historical context is extremely important, especially in the period that I work on. You know, there's massive social change going on in Russia at that time. There was, you know, a lot of reforms and failures of reforms.

Actually during one of Dostoevsky's novels, there was a rising suicide rate. There was just like a lot of massive social change, especially, the liberation of the Serfs in the 1860's. So you can't not look at this.

On the other hand, I think that Russian novels have a really great way of being these texts that you could probably not even think about the social historical, cultural context.

I kind of imagine the ideal novel is a novel that you uncover in 2000 years and read it for its depth without having any reference point. And that's why I would choose "The Brothers Karamazov" again.

Ashley Smiley: Do you think that you would be able to do that specifically because they were written taking into historical context? Like you said, some of these novels were written during a social upheaval or some revolution, and like nowadays even we can relate to big changes in policy and big changes, socio politically speaking, so then in the future if someone says like, "Oh well I can relate to this novel, it's timeless. It's something that is standalone, but the reason it's that way is because it's like very connected to humanity."

Brian: Yeah. I think that most of the huge changes in, you know, philosophical thought or literary ideas or innovations of those sort, happen in times of real crisis where you have to think about what it is to be, you know, human, what it is to believe in something like God or you know, what do you think society should be? It's really during times of crisis that those questions kind of surface, I would say.

Ashley Smiley: So you are multilingual, you speak French, Russian, Czech, German, of course English. Did you learn all of these languages throughout your life or have you mostly developed them through your academic career?

Brian: So I learned language in school. French I learned in high school, and then I became a French major because I really loved the culture. They always say that French is your second culture or something like that. And in a lot of ways I was really lucky to be able to go there and experience that culture.

I would say that I was always looking for something else. Something maybe more connected to my roots. I would say that French and Russian are my most important. I learned Czech because I came to Berkeley on a FLAS, a FLAS is the Foreign Language and Area Studies Grant from the U.S. Department of Education, and it funded a couple of years of study at Berkeley and I took Czech. It was a very interesting and important part of my intellectual trajectory.

Ashley Smiley: It seems like your propensity for learning new languages has really allowed you to explore several versions of like novels being both translated, and in their original texts.

Brian: Yeah.

Ashley Smiley: So do you travel for your work? And I know you may have access to literature here in the United States, but if you ever want to, you know, go look for original or earlier versions of texts that may only exist in archives in other parts of the world.

Brian: Yeah, I mean I love traveling. You know, I spent that year in St. Petersburg doing that M.A., it was a European M.A. I was there as kind of an exchange student.

It was a very long year. It was the coldest winter in Petersburg in 40 years, or no, since 1940 I think. It was extremely cold.

Ashley Smiley: Like how cold are we talking?

Brian: Negative 30 Fahrenheit. You would just not want to leave the house for days. So that feeling of entrapment, and actually I would say it was during that winter that the idea of my dissertation was born. I was reading on Anna Karenina again during one of these cold, snowy wintry times, and that was where I kind of, you know, first came on to what would have originally become, you know, eventually become what I'm working on today many, many years later.

I also went to Moscow a couple of times. I went to Moscow last summer to do research and I also went to Helsinki because Helsinki would never know, but you know, it was a part of the Russian Empire during the 19th centuries. They have a lot of materials from that period.

Ashley Smiley: So what do you spend your time doing when you're traveling? Do you solely go to a museums and explore what they have in their archives? Do you find yourself setting up meetings with other academics? What's that like?

Brian: I mean, a lot of times I'll take a Russian language class to just, you know, get back in the grammar.

When I'm in Russia, I love to, I really love just walking around and being as a regular person and I love grocery stores. I love food. So I would say I spend a lot of time exploring food, exploring and just meeting people, hanging out with friends. I have friends in Moscow. I have friends in Petersburg, so when I'm there I like to be as normal as I can.

My favorite place to go in Moscow is the Tretyakov which is this a very great art history museum, and they have icons in the basement. It's very amazing to see these icons that are hundreds of years old, sometimes from 1100.

Ashley Smiley: So icons? What are those?

Brian: Icons are like visual representations of different figures from the Bible.

Ashley Smiley: Okay.

Brian: Icons are important to the Orthodox faith. So basically they're flat and they display in a pictorial manner. Some aspect from, you know, that might be Christ or Mary or other figures there. They have religious connection.

Ashley Smiley: Okay. So I want to ask this question before I forget. So how and why did you end up in Berkeley, do you suppose?

Brian: That's an interesting question. I was actually deciding between a few programs when I applied and the thing that really drew me to Berkeley was just the amazing quality of the faculty here. And other programs are really great, but I was just very impressed.

Also I wanted sunshine in the winter time.

Ashley Smiley: Yes, that temperate environment is so solid.

Brian: And so I would say, because Grad school, you know, a lot of students probably on the show have said how stressed out Grad students spend a lot on their time, and weather it's just one less thing that you have to think about.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah, no, I get that. But it also kind of perplexes me because it seems that you have this thematic catalyst that helps you come up with your ideas. Like you mentioned that when reading one of Tolstoy's novels in Illinois, it was very cold and stormy almost. Or that when you're in St Petersburg it was during this like winter, like this most severe winter since 1940, but it seems like there's this growth that comes out of that, you know, in terms of how you're thinking about literature. So do you feel that in the Bay Area, do you have a connection? Like how does that weather impact your creative process?

Brian: That's a very difficult question. I would say that. No, no, it's actually a really interesting question because it's kind of the effect of the environment on the reader. And that's a big problem that I think about. You know, I'm a reader and I'm always in some kind of environment.

I would say living in the Bay Area, not the weather is kind of this pressure, but it's the life around you that, you know, it's the price of housing, it's the price of food. It's, you know, the pressures of Grad school. But it's also, you know, the pending idea that there could be an earthquake.

Ashley Smiley: Oh yeah.

Brian: Wildfires, you know, coming around.

I think there is a really big sense that at any time, you know, the environment could change your entire life. It's not like a snow storm, but I've always had that feeling about this region that it's the pulse of the big areas, this idea that this unsettled-ness or maybe the energy that comes from that, maybe it's from the earth or something, has been a really great catalyst to, you know, my work here. But of course like being in a very intense scholarly community is going to do that too. So at least being challenged though, always getting feedback, come to Berkeley, I would say. All right.

Ashley Smiley: So I want to kind of refocus this discussion about your research, your work. Do you refer to your work as your research?

Brian: It's kind of an interesting question because I think in the humanities we've been pushed into writing more on our own, kind of the idea is that you're at this dissertation and it's all you, it's just one book. All the articles you publish are just you, it's just your idea. But all of my ideas have come through dialogue, not just dialogue with professors, but dialogue with my fellow students.

We have this great working group on campus called the [Grushok] in our department where students just read papers and we have this discussion about them and it's always been very intense on an intellectual level.

So I would say that my work, my research is collaborative in the sense that it came out of a collaborative environment, but it's highly individual in the sense that you're kind of responsible for your reading.

Ashley Smiley: Sure.

Brian: But I would say that any way you read a text is influenced by those around you. Any ideas you can't connect, you know, disconnect from the environment. I think this reaches to that broader issue of, you know, where ideas come from when you're describing them or when you're thinking about them, you know, maybe the weather, maybe a friend, maybe you know, this complicated past, you know, maybe some people are attracted to Russian novels because they articulate, you know, a sense of anxiety that they understand, they see.

Ashley Smiley: So these ideas that you're, you're referring to, are these sometimes questions? In your department, how do you find a standpoint that you then orient around?

Brian: So what's really important, and this is a huge difference that I would say between maybe literature and other fields, is that literature is based on interpretation. It's a hermeneutic field. There's no first or last word on a novel, or a novel's meaning, as long as you have the data to back it up. And by data, I mean textual, you know, formal elements, such as, you know, different aspects in the text.

If you can come up with a valuable way of incorporating those elements into an idea, a meaning, that is our work. And I would say that if you're working on a math equation, and this is actually a professor once told me, if somebody in, you know Germany is working on a math equation, you're working on the same one and the person in Germany discovers it, your work has done.

But the thing about literature is that, you know, we might be looking at the same data but have vastly different ideas of what that data means, because of our background, because of other texts we've read, because of our particular socio-political moment.

Ashley Smiley: Context.

Brian: Context. Context is everything with literature and readers are important. You can't have a novel if there's no reader, you have to read it. And that engaging process of reading is the thing that drives our field.

Ashley Smiley: I like that. I should say that, if you're listening now you are tuned into The Graduates at 90.7 KALX Berkeley.

So in terms of your work, do you have any major findings in your dissertation so far?

Brian: So in literature it's clearly more open ended and you know, findings could be different for other people.

Ashley Smiley: Right.

Brian: But I would say that I'm working on a project that does engage with material that is less studied because I'm working on engagement and the development of brain science in the Mid 19th Century along with the development of the Russian novel.

And what I'm finding is there is an incredible amount of overlap between these seemingly very vastly different fields. This overlap happens at different ways. It happens through, you know, Dostoevsky who had worked for a journal, and his friend was translating science, or actually was a scientist, or was a doctor. So there's this incredible like personal relationships that I've found, unexpectedly.

For example, there's this one person who wrote basically the first physiology of any kind of like sensory processes in the human body, in Russian. It was in the late 1850's, and this particular figure was also kind of teaching stenography. So they are training all these people to be stenographers. I'm interested in kind of this, you know, emerging brain science, whether it had connection with literary figures. And it just so happens that the stenography teacher, who kind of made the first textbook that described feelings, he introduced Dostoevsky to his first wife, because she was Dostoevsky's stenographer.

So there's this huge kind of map, you know, web of connections between those who are creating literature, those who are, you know, kind of creating an understanding of the workings of the brain. And I would say in today's world we're used to literature and science kind of existing on two different planets almost, but, and this varied, you know, literature and science competed for attention, for understanding of complexity of human, the what they call the dusha, like the human soul and those kinds of things. And so you can't separate them. They were completely enmeshed with each other in this period.

And I think we can learn from that, that, you know, I think that we think that literary work is just like I said on a different planet, but it doesn't have to be. A scientist in this period felt that literature had a role. I'm not just talking about in Russia, I mean in France, in Victorian England. So what do we lose when we disconnect fields, when we lose that interdisciplinary link? What happens when disciplines stop talking to each other and stop taking each other seriously?

Ashley Smiley: Yeah. I think you just end up with a lot of isolationism and elitism. I mean maybe both sides, like especially with science...

Brian: Darwin read Elliot.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah, no, I think, I sometimes wonder about that, like famous scientists who made major discoveries weren't individuals who were purely scientific. These historical figures were more dynamic.

Brian: Charles Darwin's grandfather, Erasmus Darwin, he was instrumental in kind of putting language to this idea of evolution. He was first a poet. They all wanted to be poets. So, do you know of a scientist who would rather be a poet today? I'm sure they're out there.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah, no I'm totally wanting to be a poet like right now.

Okay. So do you have advice for students who want to get more interested in research in your departments?

Brian: Take our classes. Take Russian. Russian language is taught by very energetic, really interesting graduate students and others.

Ashley Smiley: Are you one of those graduate students?

Brian: Of course. We also teach reading composition, but we, you know, our department has really great courses on people like Tolstoy.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah.

Brian: Nabokov, I don't know if you've ever read Lolita, but we have a great course on Nabokov. We have a great courses on the Russian classics, but also new things. We have a new course this semester on Russia and China. We're always reaching out into other realms.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah. I get the sense that you do quite a bit of reading, and just something that I am personally interested in is do you have any advice on how to become a better reader or how to better absorb the information? How do you read a book?

Brian: I read with a pen.

Ashley Smiley: Okay.

Brian: I always read with a pen and I underline what I think is important and I look for patterns. Patterns are really important. I think that reading twice is essential. It's not always something I practice. Texts from a different period or a different culture, you're going to get something on the first read and then the second read you'll see other things.

Ashley Smiley: Do you always read start to finish or do you kind of pop in different parts?

Brian: Yeah, I mean with dissertation reading, you're always kind of reading the intro of things.

Ashley Smiley: Sure.

Brian: Don't ever tell anybody I said that.

Ashley Smiley: You know, for us it's the abstracts, like I read the abstract.

Brian: With novels, clearly, you know, you read it once and then you're always reading it again for different passages.

And you know there's this entire field of what they call distant reading, by this professor at Stanford, Franco Moretti, you know, using computers to read texts and look for patterns.

I'm a close reader, so I'm not a distant reader. I'm a close reader. I look extremely close. Give me a paragraph and I will write a dissertation about it.

Ashley Smiley: That's incredible.

Brian: There is that famous, I'll say, there's like a famous essay about a sentence, you know, where you can write 40 pages on a sentence. I'm a close, close, close reader.

I once heard someone say that, you know, the American tradition of close reading is very connected to Bible studying, kind of Bible close reading, but, there seems to be some validity to that. It's one school, there's other schools.

Ashley Smiley: So your work seems to focus on historical texts-

Brian: Right.

Ashley Smiley: - from Russia.

Brian: Right.

Ashley Smiley: Originating from there.

Brian: Yeah. Russian empire. Yeah.

Ashley Smiley: So how does that connect to contemporary issues or events that are happening now? Is there a connection?

Brian: I think that that is a very interesting question in the sense that we're always kind of, when we read these texts where guys kind of led to make very broad connections, you know, when the discussion is on authoritarianism, you know, all you have to do is look to today.

I'm always asked, you know, what is going on today? You know, what does this Putin figure up to? I don't have the answers. And I would say that I love that country, mostly because it endlessly fascinates me and I think politics are politics, and you know what's going on in the world has so many layers, and it would be a tragedy if we stopped sharing, we stopped internationally cooperating, mostly because I think our cultures have a lot to share.

The Russian Federation today is one of the most diverse places in terms of just the amount of different nationalities that live there, and the amount of languages, and you know, different customs. There's so many times zones. You know, it takes so many days to cross you know, it takes like 10 hours to fly.

Ashley Smiley: Wow. That is substantial.

Brian: It's not a monolithic hole, just like the United States isn't a monolithic hole.

Go there. I love it. I mean I love to go there. It's an exciting place to visit. There's always things changing, just like things change everywhere.

We're not seeing the last word. You know, this is not the end. This is not going to be how things always are and things always change. That's one thing that that country has taught me. Things change in ways that you'd never even thought they could change. Sometimes for the worst, as it has been framed, sometimes for the better. So I guess you never know, never know when that earthquake is going to hit.

Ashley Smiley: So what, we're going to move into this to this section, what we call the soapbox section. So it's essentially an opportunity for you to bring up any issues or subjects that you feel that the general public should be more aware of and...

Brian: Yeah, so I would say, maybe connected to what I was just talking about with this issue of, you know, Russia and the media and things like that. I think, you know, we have to really rethink how we judge an entire culture based on politics. You know, we of course don't want to be judged on our political leaders just like anybody else does. But you know, something that has really kind of spooked a lot of academics in my field is this new, there's a new travel warning on Russia, they've been increased to level three. And that basically means that a lot of the grants that we could have gotten through the State Department don't exist, or we can't use them to go to Russia anymore.

So that is a huge problem. We need people to go there. We need cultural exchange.

Ashley Smiley: Yeah. And it seems that some of this fear could be alleviated by exploring more about the culture of, not Russia specifically, but just parts of the world that we don't know anything about, and just trust the media.

Brian: Yeah. I think this situation is much more complicated when you go to places. Talk to people.

I think that we have this idea of cutting things off and closing borders, putting up walls, that's going to solve our problems, but it just slows things down. It's stagnation in a lot of ways.

Ashley Smiley: Well, thank you. I think we are basically out of time, but thank you for coming to The Graduates and speaking with us about your work.

Brian: Yeah, it was great.

Ashley Smiley: Thank you Brian.

Brian: Bye.

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So, if I go back to the self-transcendent nature, how I see self-love is self-love really has this ability to take us out of ourselves to then connect to others so we're focusing on ourselves like filling up our own love tank so to speak with the ability to then show up for others more and to connect more because if I'm feeling really good in myself and I'm taking care of myself that means I have more bandwidth to show up for other people as opposed to if my love tank is empty if my self-love is low then I'm doing things perhaps with expectations of receiving in return. When that's not happening, I'm feeling resentful and all that is very like negative low vibration feeling within ourselves, and ultimately, it's not the type of connection that we're searching for, right? To me self-love – and I'll say that if I can to give you a definition of self-love – one of the folks I've seen written about it the most, who wrote about the most is a psychologist and philosopher Erich Fromm, and he wrote a book called The Art of Loving, I believe. It was like in the five different types of love, I believe. It's like it's a hundred-page book, and it's really easy to read, and it talks about like five different types of love, like a love for God, a love from your parents. It talks about like a brotherly love – and that’s more like a friendship kind of feeling – but he also talks about this love for self, and it's this idea of caring for, respecting of yourself and your actions in the way that you're going about your life, and it's this stagnant – for me, I think it really is a stagnant way of being, so when there are adversities and when we have to be resilient, right, self-love is so important, but even when things are going great, right, like self-love is still a constant thing, and it's, I think, it's actually tied to other emotions that when we are in a state of self-love we actually experience calm and joy, and we're able to be more aware for these other opportunities to opt in to connection, right?Saintsing: Yeah.Ziemer: But I think – if I can just say – I think there's a myth I'd really like to bust actually about self-love, which is I think oftentimes there is this, there's this idea that emerged I think in the 80s maybe, or the 90s – I'm blanking on my timeframe right now – came out of the self-help movement which is, which was to say that like before, before you can love anyone else or anyone can really love you that you have to love yourself first, right? So, which for me I find problematic in a lot of ways. I feel like it doesn't really encapsulate the full story. I think that when we are really loving ourselves, sure I think perhaps we're choosing better partners or choosing better relationships that are healing and wonderful for us, right? But, I think – and I see this in this self-love movement right now – that kind of happens in pop culture that puts such an onus or a burden on people to really like, there's almost a perfectionism tendency of, like, I need to get to self-love. Otherwise I'm not good enough, and yeah, and this idea of like not being good enough, that's truly not self-love anyway, right? It really is a self-accepting piece, and so, I think the second part of this, also this myth I want to bust, is that, you know, we are wired for social connection, right? There are researchers, and Brené Brown has talked about this. Matthew Lieberman talks about this, and like an actual brain part of our brain literally is like wired to connect, and so, if I go back to this idea of self-love that, when we are opting into relationships and connection with people, that it can the reciprocal nature can be so healing within ourselves that we don't have to first achieve this like unachievable self-love before we can get into relationships with other people, okay? So, did I explain myself okay there?Saintsing: Yeah, you, so you're saying that self-love has this requirement that you accept yourself as you are, right? Which I guess is true of any sort of love, right?Ziemer: Yeah.Saintsing: Whether it’s directed inward or outward, right, there's this acceptance to it.Ziemer: Lovely, yeah.Saintsing: And so, you're saying that people tend to view self-love as something that they earn from themselves.Ziemer: Yeah, yeah, I think that's a great. Right. There's this like earning quality, and I think that's really well said. That it's like, to earn implies I have to do, to do, to obtain, obtain, obtain as opposed to like self-love just is because I exist, because you exist right here right now, right? And, that's my like mindfulness piece kind of tapping in there a little bit, but it just is.Saintsing: Yeah.Ziemer: It's, it's been interesting when I talk to – so my own research interest about like what am I actually studying for my PhD, because I'm a social worker, I'm also very much interested in like interventions like what can we do alongside our clients, alongside our community. What can we do in tandem with them to kind of get them this outcome that they're looking for. So, perhaps it's like feeling better about themselves if they're experiencing depression for example, right?Saintsing: Right.Ziemer: And, with self-love I started thinking about, is there a self-love intervention that would be really interesting to try out and study in some way from this like scientifically rigorous procedure for a scientific research method, right? And, when I started talking to people about, there's a common one that is spoken about in self-help, and I've also found it prevalent in addiction communities in like rehab, for example, where you look at yourself in the mirror you make, you literally make eye contact with yourself in the mirror, and you say something positive about yourself. So, I prefer that it's not statements related to like your physical appearance because I do think that it could take like a narcissistic trend, but we're really thinking about like a self-affirming statement, like I'm a good friend or even – I think and really I'm such a fan of this is – really just telling yourself that you love yourself. So, saying like I love you in the mirror while you're making eye contact with yourself. To me, to love, to love somebody else is to say like, I see you, and so self-love, you're really like, okay I see you, you know? Like, you're not that bad. Like, you're actually pretty great, and I will tell you that when I've talked to so many people about this, adolescents, I've spoken to clients of mine who are coming to see me wanting to feel better from depression, I've spoken to scholars about this, and so many people, I get two reactions. One is like absolute repulsion about absolutely not. I will not look at myself in the mirror. Like, this is, why would I ever do that, and two, I think going back to this idea that you were talking about. It's almost like confusion about well like why would I even think about myself. Why would I love myself as like this other entity, but I'm so focused on, you know, loving everybody else. That really to love is to love others, right? Like in scholarly research, we talk about one of the definitions of love is like being a trusted caregiver to others. I mean that's a very amended definition, but love is always this other-oriented emotion, and so, self-love, it's like, like why would I, why would I even do that.Saintsing: It's kind of like awe in some senses. In awe you sort of see something spectacular that makes you see how small you are or how much more there is.Ziemer: Yeah.Saintsing: And, in this self-love you have to see yourself as just another person instead of like where love is flowing from, right? But, self-love kind of like makes you realize you're not like the center of the universe or something. That you're, that you're just another person, and that like, that, that makes you more able, as you said in the self-transcendence, to connect with other people, I guess.Ziemer: I think this is actually why I feel so strongly about self-love is because I think this exact idea that you're talking about is folks who are experiencing depression or addiction, for example right? So, I'm actually, I'm funded. My dissertation is funded through the NIAAA, which is alcohol abuse and I work specifically with the funder here in the Bay Area that alcohol research group. So, oftentimes when we're experiencing addiction or depression we become so tunnel vision in our own mind about what's wrong with ourselves, how things aren't working for me and when we're in depression and addiction, often social isolation is happening it's very difficult to connect to others. And so, I'm such a believer that self-love could have the potential, and this is where I'm curious, right? Like, so from, you know, I'm hearing like my mentors and my advisors’ thoughts in my head right now about, you know, sometimes in the scientific world it can almost be a negative to be a believer, right? That, I think like self-love is a super power. But, I really need to employ my like scientifically rigorous, you know, unbiased view so to speak. Let's be curious about this. Could self-love actually be a superpower? As opposed to like approaching this self-love as a superpower, right? So, I should – let me reel it back for a second to say that, however, yes I do feel like, coming back to this point of awe, that, that self-love definitely, I would hypothesize, leads to feelings of awe because of this ability to connect us to other people, and that it gets us out of our own head. I think my greater vision for my research is to think like how can we employ self-love. It's free. It’s accessible, which I like, right, because a lot of these other therapies, cognitive behavioral therapy. Although I'm a believer, you see there's an access issue. If you go to a private practitioner in New York City, it's $200. I think San Francisco, it's 150, 200. So, my greater vision really would be for people to be able to really continue to cultivate this self-love within themselves.Saintsing: More specifically, what, what would you say your research for your PhD actually entails?Ziemer: Yeah, so yeah, thanks to that questions. I think self-love first. I was just kind of thinking of self-love, I think of, is this like umbrella term, this idea that if self-love is an umbrella and the prongs. There are many different prongs. So, to me it's this idea of like self-compassion, which is like when we're judging ourselves, criticizing ourselves, we’re able to accept ourselves, you know, amidst that. Self-care, which is like the respecting, doing things, really acting caring towards ourselves. This self-esteem idea, right, that we feel competent about ourselves. So, so the reason that I say this kind of umbrella term is because there's little research out there right now that that actually includes self-love, certainly how I know it to be true in these in therapeutic communities, for example. So, I'm so fascinated by, I'll say, phenomena of self-love in popular science in like the Psychology Today blogs, on social media. Like, if you go to Instagram and you type in #selflove, you get 32 million posts on Instagram. Google, you Google self-love, you get three billion returns. So, something is happening out there. What is it? So, I think what the, to me, the intriguing pieces. So, before I can go ahead and develop an intervention, right, even though I really want to jump to that phase, we know that a PhD that you have to take little bits by bits, right? That is actually talking about a career-long pursuit. So, it really, my own research really is conceptualizing this idea of self-love in these lay theory views. So, when I say lay theory I don't mean like scholars who have already written about self-love. I mean people who are on Instagram, and they're posting about self-love, so right now I'm in the process of thinking about perhaps analyzing Instagram posts to see how people, what sort of images people are posting when they're doing #selflove, and specifically within the context of like addiction and sobriety and recovery and that, so where these two worlds of like self-love and addiction intersects and how are people and these lay communities, you know, these therapists, everyday people, how are they talking about self-love? I'm really curious to kind of dig through that because I see, I do see some posts that could be it seen as narcissism, right? Right? I see posts that are very much moving away from this like self-care realm. So, so self-care really is rooted in this like black feminist queer theory, Audrey Lorde. This idea that like you're taking care of yourself so that you can show up for the collective, and this really activist mentality to now this transition of like #selfcareday Starbucks ad with your Frappuccino, whatever. On the beach, #selfcare, right? This is like commoditization, right, of self-care, and people there's you know, so there's, there's like #selfcare, #selflove, but what are we really talking about here? And, I'm so curious to kind of capture some of that, to also include therapists’ voices, people in recovery to kind of see like, what, what is this idea of, of self-love to them?Saintsing: Okay, so you draw on psychology, sociology, lots of different research techniques.Ziemer: Yeah, behavioral health.Saintsing: Yeah, so would you say that's generally true? People who are getting PhDs in the School of Social Welfare, that this is really interdisciplinary?Ziemer: Yeah, what a lovely question. Yes, thank you for saying that. This is why I love social work so much by the way. I really love the social work profession because I do feel like you know in this applied profession we really are always working in these interdisciplinary environments, right? If you're like a clinician working in a hospital you're working with doctors and nurses and psychiatrists for example, right?Saintsing: Right.Ziemer: And so, I think the beauty of this PhD at Berkeley in the Social Welfare Department has so much been about the freedom to connect with other professors and other departments. It's, so in public health for example I've connected with some professors there or some psychology whether it's emotions research or like adolescent development psychopathology for example. So, and I have, yeah, I have you know lovely people in my cohort who are bridging the gap with like anthropology, criminology, for example, so yeah, education. It's really, it's cool.Saintsing: And, you knew that you wanted to be a social worker right out of college?Ziemer: I took a very interesting path. I think I always knew, like in high school, I always was intrigued by the psychology profession, and yeah, I was, I was thought, you know, I'm so drawn to like authenticity and people's lives. Like, what's really happening, you know? I always was drawn to that, but when I was in college, I went to the University of Wisconsin, and they had a great business school, and so, I got a business degree, and I actually, my family, I come from, you know, a long line of people who are in the business world. My dad had been in sales for so long. My brother’s in sales now. My mom was, you know, this is like badass. I don't know if I'm allowed to say that. Badass in the corporate world. So, it was always kind of an influence for me, and I did, I was a consultant, an IT consultant, but I realized, like, yeah, I need to, I felt like there was something, my soul was dying. I really wanted to pursue something that I was so excited and curious about, so yeah, about eight years ago I got my Masters in Social Work. I started my MSW program in New York City. That coincided too with some things that were happening in my family, and it just felt like the right time to like leave the corporate world and dive into the Social Work arena.Saintsing: And then, you, you got your masters, and then you worked a little while as a social worker, right?Ziemer: Yeah, so I I did my MSW. It’s a two-year program, and then I was working in New York City for three years at an after school, like a high school Support Program. It was an after-school program, and it was, I mean, I learned so much. It was incredible. I have such love. It's, the program is to reach youth and it's a working at a public high school in Brooklyn, and I think there, maybe, I don't know, our team was maybe ten people or something, and I have such love to this day for these people that I worked with. I mean the environment was so fun. Like, you – we were, we were working with teenagers, teenagers who didn't have a lot of resources at their disposal. I mean this is like a New York City public-funded high school. It's what, the school's we were working with were like C grades, so the way that New York City rates their schools like ABC, so we were a C school, and that means people that I worked with, the strategies they were using were so creative to get these young people what they needed while also providing such a safe space for these young people to learn about themselves. And so, I was actually, I was doing therapy with kids who are high-risk, so who were at risk for suicide, who were just really having a hard time academically or at home and whatnot, but it was such a fun environment. I mean people were so authentic, and I mean, I don't know your experience with young people, but young people, they can sense when you BS. And so, you really have no other choice but to show up authentically, right? And it was such a gift really to work there.Saintsing: So, that was a great experience, and what I guess drove you… I – most people in social work, or if you're a professional, I guess, you mostly just need the masters, and then, you could do the work. What drove you onward to the doctorate?Ziemer: Yeah, yeah, so, so I think there were two things. So, one was I would run, every Monday afternoon, I'd run a girl's group. So, like 16-, 17-year-olds. They would come, and we would talk about all the things. Whatever they wanted to talk about, and I was finding a lot of the girls were expressing such anger, and this anger of just like what was just happening in life but then you know the microcosm of like the school environment and Facebook and people calling each other out and you know subliminal subs that were being thrown on Facebook for example, that would then transfer to the school day the next day. And, there would be fights, and girls would get suspended, and so, when I started talking to them about anger and what anger did for them and getting to fight, it really, getting into a fight is a release, right? Like, your adrenaline’s so high and you punch someone out or you do something like, you feel better but it's instantaneous because any of these long-term consequences of getting suspended, your parents finding out, what not, right? Right, so I'd say to them like, yeah what are strategies? How can I – literally I was like what are some strategies that we can use in order to kind of sort through all the different feelings that anger brings? Because ultimately anger is powerlessness, like we get angry when we feel powerless, and so, I started investigating mindfulness. Mindfulness was really just becoming a thing. This was like 2014. At least that was when I first started hearing about it, and so, I would try to understand like, what is this mindfulness? How do I use it? So, mindfulness really is, a definition from Jon Kabat-Zinn in the simplest form that I like, is this idea of non-judgmentally noticing, so like noticing that I got really pissed when someone posted something on Facebook about me that may not be true and like then taking the breath in the pause before I respond, before I respond something nasty to someone on Facebook or want to punch them out the next day for example, right? When you're talking to adolescents, this pause is very difficult because you're also talking about like an age in development where you have impulsivity, and like they're trying to figure out who they are? So, I started diving into this mindfulness. I thought like this could really work, but I was so, mindfulness research was so new at the time. I think it really hit its peak around like 2016 in terms of like the amount of journals are published on it like exponentially increased. So, I knew that, how mindfulness is being talked about in terms of the population, I was working with, so people who were coming from primarily like black and brown communities, lower socioeconomic having toxic stress, mindfulness felt very like white, waspy, affluent. Part one. Part two was I couldn't figure out what are these mindfulness techniques and how can we actually apply them to adolescence. So, I am getting interested in that and started reading all that I could and figured I really wanted to work on interventions for adolescents that were geared around mindfulness to these specific populations I talked about where I felt like there was such a lack of evidence at that point for these groups, so that was part one. Part two: around the same time, I read an op-ed piece in The New York Times written by Dr. Keltner here in psychology, and it was, what is – something like, What is the Emotion of Awe, and I thought that sounds like, what is awe? And, how should I get to know this person? Who is this person? Which then started, for me, like a flurry of googling UC Berkeley, and I knew I wasn't going to be do PhD in Psych, but I found a professor here, Valerie Shapiro, who's my advisor and has been so lovely navigating this PhD world with me. She's a prevention and implementation science researcher here in School of Social Welfare, and she had a study examining social emotional learning programs here in elementary schools in California, so like teaching little kids about empathy for example. So, I thought, oh that's like emotion, and it has to do with like kids and in schools. Like, even though my interests aren't completely aligned, let me reach out to her and see if I could work with her. So, that's kind of how I came to study. My two main areas really have been mindfulness and then positive emotions, specifically now self-love but in this greater context of you know these social problems, like social isolation, depression, addiction and yeah.Saintsing: So, unfortunately, it's been a lot of fun, but we're coming up towards our time limit. Usually at the end of the interview we'll take a minute to offer guests a chance to address the audience about anything that they'd like to talk about. Oftentimes, people talk about like social issues or some things specific to their research.Ziemer: I think, well one thing I want to say for sure is that I think I just want to do a shout out of gratitude as I've been really developing this idea of self-love, I have been working with an undergrad in the Social Welfare Department, Joyce, who's really has helped me kind of start thinking about all this like self-care and self-compassion and where all these terms kind of intersect and cataloging these different Instagram posts to figure out like, yeah, what, what really is self-love and how people are talking about it. So, I wanted to do a shout out to her, and then, I think, you know, lastly, I guess I would say that I think for me I think it's such an important point to hit home is that for me self-love really isn't a selfishness, but it really is, and it's not this like me-focused thing, but it really is in this idea of continuing to like connect and show up as our authentic selves with others, so I think it has some serious healing power behind it. So, we'll see. Yeah, more will be revealed.Saintsing: We all look forward to the results of your research. Thank you so much. Today I've been speaking with KellyZiemerfrom the School of Social Welfare. We've been speaking about her research on positive emotions and the potential therapeutic benefits of self-love. Thank you so much for being on the show, Kelly.Ziemer: Oh, thank you for having me. This is lovely.Saintsing: Tune in in two weeks for the next episode of The Graduates.

Sara ElShafie

Keywords: climate change, global change biology, reptiles, science communication, narrativeAndrew Saintsing: Hi, you're tuned into 90.7 FM KALX Berkeley. I'm AndrewSaintsing, and this is The Graduates, the interview talk show where we speak to UC Berkeley graduate students about their work here on campus and around the world. Today I'm joined by SaraElShafiefrom the Department of Integrative Biology. Welcome to the show, Sara.Sara ElShafie: Thanks for having me.Saintsing: It's so great to have you here. So, Sarah, you're a paleontologist. Is that correct?ElShafie: Yes, I'm a paleontologist. I always introduce myself as a global change biologist, which just means that I study how climate change and environmental change impact life over time, and paleontology is part of it.Saintsing: Right. So, would you say you're first and foremost a global change biologist?ElShafie: Yeah, just because I don't only work on fossils. I also look at stuff that's around today in order to understand how climate change and stuff impacted life in the past and also what that tells us about where we're headed now and in the future.Saintsing: Okay, cool. So, you're looking at like our current climate change?ElShafie: Yes.Saintsing: Yeah, but also, so the climate has changed a lot in the past, you'd say.ElShafie: Yes, and, and there have been really dramatic events of climate change before, some of which kind of mirror what's going on today, so I look at how those past climate change events impacted life that lived millions of years ago in order to try to better understand what we might expect from climate change today and how it will impact animals that are currently around and also people.Saintsing: What were kind of the outcomes of past climate changes? Is it looking bad for us?ElShafie: Well, in terms of like how climate change now is going to affect society, yeah there are a lot of concerning ramifications that we're already seeing. In terms of how it's affected life in the past, it has all kinds of effects. It can affect where things can live. It can affect what they eat or what's available for them to eat. It can affect how big they get. So, I kind of look at all of those factors in a big picture.Saintsing: You look at all animals, all plants, all organisms? Or, are you looking at specific things?ElShafie: Specifically, I focus on reptiles because reptiles are especially susceptible to changes in climate and changes in their environment because they can't generate their own body heat metabolically the way you and I canSaintsing: Right.ElShafie: Most of them can't and I look at lizards and, and crocodiles and their relatives specifically because they're really abundant in the fossil record, and they have a lot in common with lizards and crocodiles that are around today, so I can use the lizards and crocodiles that are around today to understand the ones that are in the fossil record.Saintsing: Okay, and so, you are looking at how their bodies change over time basically? You're looking at how big the fossils are at certain periods compared to other periods, before and after climate change and how big they are compared to today?ElShafie: Yeah, pretty much body size is the main metric that I use, the main kind of factor that is influenced by climate change because I can use the partial skeletons that I find of lizards and crocodiles in the fossil record to figure out how big they were in the past at any given point before, during, or after a major climate change event. And, I can use lizards and crocodiles that are around today to try to estimate how big they were in the past using only a piece of a skull or a piece of a limb, for example, because it's actually very rare to find whole skeletons in the fossil record of these things.Saintsing: Right. That must be really frustrating.ElShafie: Yeah, well, it also means that I get to I have an excuse to study lots of stuff that's around today in order to understand the fossils, so it gives me a more holistic research experience which I enjoy.Saintsing: So, do you actually get to study living animals? Or, do you mostly look at the bones of the living animals?ElShafie: I do. I study living animals, the living lizards and crocodilians, to understand their body proportions and how I can estimate like the whole length of the animal from just one element, like one piece of the skull or the jaw or the arm bone or something and also to understand how the animals live today and is there any relationship between their morphology, how they look, how their bones look, and what part of a habitat they might live in or what they might be eating or what their physiology might be like.Saintsing: Okay.ElShafie: So yeah studying the living animals is really important for understanding the fossil animals.Saintsing: Right, and so you study specifically reptiles and crocodiles? So you say you studying global change across time, but is there specific period you're interested in, or are you just comparing all the different periods?ElShafie: Yeah, so specifically I look at a period of time, geologic time called the Paleogene which was from about 66 million years ago to about 23-ish million years ago. So, this is right after dinosaurs went extinct up until about 23 million years ago, at which point we had ice at the poles again. We actually didn't have ice at the poles earlier right after the dinosaurs went extinct, and so, during that whole timespan, climate change was happening. The world started off pretty warm, and then it got super-hot relatively quickly right around fifty-six million years ago when there is this incident called the Paleocene-Eocene thermal maximum. So, within a relatively short span of time, a few hundred thousand years or so, the world got really, really hot really fast. Like it increased five degrees Celsius or so, and that's actually even hotter than the warming that we've experienced just in the last century or two, but the rate was actually not even quite as fast as what we're experiencing now, so it is a really powerful analogous event to look at and to better understand what we can expect with the rapid climate change that we're experiencing today. So, it got super, super-hot and around that time the world looked very, very different. Like, there was no ice at the poles at all and the interior of North America actually looked like a jungle if you can picture Utah which is now a desert looking like the Amazon. That's how different it was, which is really crazy to think about. So, to find fossils of crocodiles and these huge lizards and like the first primates and crazy horses and all kinds of stuff in the deserts of Utah and Wyoming and Colorado, and, and it seems it's all from a jungle that looked more like what South America looks like today, which is really awesome, and then over time it kind of dried out and got more arid and more grassy after that.Saintsing: Thinking about what I've grown up thinking about, you know, the extinction of dinosaurs, right? You get this picture in your head that the asteroid hits and then things get really cold.ElShafie: Mm-hmm.Saintsing: There was this drop in temperature that led to the dinosaur extinction still?ElShafie: Yeah, I think it got cold for a while. Right after the asteroid hit event it like, you know, blocked out a lot of sunlight and stuff, but then after that, you know, about 10 million years or so or not even that long. Then the world had largely recovered, but it also looked very different.Saintsing: So, it was an overall pretty warm climate?ElShafie: Yeah, it's – the earth has gone through a lot of changes over millions of years, and it's cool to look at those changes on a timescale of millions of years rather than just, you know, a few hundred years or even thousand years because, since climate is changing so rapidly today, and it's, it's different than anything that humans have experienced in human history. We really have no analog for it in our own history, so looking at much older events in the past and the rate that that happened and the changes that happened and at what pace they happened helps us try to anticipate what we can expect in the future.Saintsing: Right, so what brought about – why did the ice appear again at the poles?ElShafie: At that point Antarctica became isolated, and it was isolated by a current that still flows now around Antarctica. I think it's called the circumpolar current or something, but it keeps, it basically keeps Antarctica refrigerated and that's part of what contributed to it.Saintsing: Just having Antarctica in the place that it's in was enough to give us the climate we have today?ElShafie: Well, yeah. Cuz it's almost like having two giant freezers at each pole of the globe so to speak, and, that you know, they don't exist in isolation either. The ocean currents travel all over the world. They pass by the Arctic or the Antarctic and they bring cold water and that affects the like nutrients and upwelling in other parts of the world including the California coast, and it, you know, it affects how climate and temperature play out over the entire Earth. So, yeah, it's all connected.Saintsing: Yeah, I guess we're dealing with how connected we are right now, right?ElShafie: Mm-hmm. Exactly.Saintsing: So as a climate change scientist – or a global change scientist but you, you know, you're really interested in climate change, I guess. A lot of your work is focused on informing the public on climate change and about science in general. I know you've done a lot of work on improving science communication as a student here, right? Or, at least studying it to understand how it can be improved. So, yeah, can you tell us a little bit more about the work you're doing on that front?ElShafie: Absolutely, yeah, science communication and outreach has always been a big passion of mine and that really started in college, and by the time I got into my master's degree, I realized that I not only wanted that to be a big focus of my career, I actually wanted it to be my primary career direction, in fact. So, I actually came to Berkeley with the intention of pursuing a career in science outreach leadership and science communication, and I knew that I wanted that to be a big part of my activity while pursuing my dissertation here in integrative biology because I also wanted to get the highest scientific training. So, while I've been here working on my dissertation I've also been doing a lot of work in science communication which started as just an attempt to improve my own skills because I realized a couple years into my program here that I myself was really struggling to explain my research to my own family members…Saintsing: Right.ElShafie: In a way that was at all meaningful to them. It really bothered me that I was struggling with that, so I decided to work on it, and I realized that I wasn't the only one that seemed to be having that challenge, and probably a lot of my peers could benefit from it as well, so I got really interested in storytelling, in story development because I figured, well everybody likes stories, so if I can talk about my science in that context, you know, and using storytelling, good storytelling then maybe I would get somewhere. And, I've always been a huge film buff and especially a huge fan of Pixar movies, and I knew that Pixar Animation Studios was actually only a couple miles from our campus. Pixar is in Emeryville, which was just south of Berkley, and so, I just decided to email them one day and actually got a response from a couple story artists who were really interested, and I invited them to come chat with grad students at our UC Museum of Paleontology. We’re based in integrative biology. And, it was going to be just a kind of pilot seminar conversation, let's just see where this goes with some grads, and it's turned into everyone from undergrads to emeritus faculty crammed into our little seminar room to hear from this story artist who was just talking about bread-and-butter stuff of the kind of strategies that they use to develop stories for their films at Pixar. And then, we had a conversation about how some of those strategies might apply to how we can talk to the public about science in a more effective and engaging way, and that was about three and a half years ago now, and since then, you know, that one seminar totally changed how I was thinking about science communication, and everybody else who was in the room responded really positively to it and remarked how useful it was, so that sparked an ongoing conversation and more and more artists at Pixar got involved volunteering their time, and now it's become this whole workshop series called Science through Story that I've been running for about three and a half years now. It started here at Berkeley on campus and has since, we've gone to other campuses, conferences, museums, organizations. So, yeah it's been a really, really fun experience and very helpful.Saintsing: Yeah, that sounds really incredible. So, you, you've taken this on the road. Is it still mostly Pixar is the main partner involved, or do you have like other studios, other artists involved?ElShafie: I've worked with other artists at this point, and the workshops, it's not a formal program of Pixar. Pixar doesn't sponsor it or anything financially. They've just been very generous in allowing their, some of the artists that work at the studio, anybody who wants to be involved to volunteer their time. So, several artists have come and run workshops with me here at Berkeley and at a few other campuses and conferences, and I meet with artists there periodically to learn from them about the creative process they use and how they approach story development, and then I adapt that into strategies that scientists and science educators can use to talk about science and an engaging way, using storytelling techniques, so Pixar people from Pixar have been involved. I've also worked with an artist who works at Industrial Light and Magic and a couple artists from DreamWorks Animation as well as an artist who was working at Double Fine productions and a guy who's a gentleman who started his own graphic design firm. Improv people, all kinds of artists through these workshops, and also we ran actually a full-day symposium called Science through Narrative: Engaging Broad Audiences, and that took place at a major biology conference, the Society for Integrative and Comparative Biology last year in 2018, when the meeting was here in San Francisco. We had a full day symposium on this topic, on science storytelling with speakers from both the scientific community and from different artistic disciplines all weighing in from their different perspectives and experiences on how to engage the audiences with science through storytelling and in different avenues, different media, different disciplines. It was really, really awesome because, to my knowledge, I think that's the first time that scientists and artists have spoken together on the same platform at a major biology conference, and we also had a lot of early career presenters involved as part of that, and out of that symposium we not only had the event itself but we also ended up publishing a whole volume of papers in a peer-reviewed biology journal, Integrative and Comparative Biology, which are now available online, and these are all peer-reviewed papers in a biology journal, but they are all written to be accessible to any reader even a high school student. Actually, we had some high school students in the past read it for some workshops that I've done at high schools in the area. We use papers from that symposium with REU, research experiences for undergraduates, program just this past summer. So, anybody can read them and get something out of it, and I, my own paper that I contributed to that volume is just called Making Science Engaging for Broad Audiences through Stories, something like that, and I wrote that paper for myself three years ago for any grad student or any student who wants to start doing more science communication or wants to get involved with science outreach and doesn't know where to start. If you're looking for a place to start, if that, if that sounds like you, then I encourage you to check out these papers because it's not just, you know, it's grad students, its scientists, its animators, it's video game developers, it's people who work in Hollywood, it’s people who work with data visualization. All kinds of voices weighing in on this, and, and they're really a fun read.Saintsing: That sounds like a really great resource.ElShafie: Yeah.Saintsing: I hope everyone takes the time to check that out. You started by talking to people at Pixar, and that was like obviously, Pixar's really close to Berkeley, and so that's sort of a matter of like convenience, right? But also, I just noticed that a lot of the people that you mentioned kind of are involved in special effects or animation or things like that? Is there a reason why that's more relatable to science, or is that just a matter of, like, you went down this avenue of talking to animators or people who are involved in animation and then that snowballed into more and more people who were involved in that side of the story developing process?ElShafie: It's a good question. Honestly, I think that scientists can learn something valuable from any type of artist, no matter what discipline because artists and scientists actually have a lot in common in terms of how we approach problems and, and what we're all trying to produce might seem very different, but ultimately the approach that we take is very similar. Both scientists and artists have to use their observation skills. That's very, very important for both conducting science and for doing art. It's all about observation. Both of us are trying to distill complexity out of a whole bunch of material that we could use, and we're trying to distill the most cogent, most cohesive, most compelling version of that story, of that study as we're presenting it, of that thing that we're trying to capture in some, some visual form or a musical form. So, it's distilling complexity. It's using the power of observation, and in terms of the artists that I ended up working with, that was just, it kind of was a combination of who I happen to meet through my networking, people that were introduced to me by colleagues that expressed interest, and we were really wonderfully fortunate that we got such a great variety of people involved. And, that was also part of it that we, you know, if we already had someone who is an animator, then we tried to get other disciplines that we didn't yet have represented for that symposium in particular. So, that was kind of how we went about it, but I would encourage scientists to talk to any and all kinds of artists because you can learn something valuable from anybody and any and all kinds of scientists.Saintsing: This is just a reminder that you’re tuned into The Graduates. Today I'm speaking with SaraElShafiefrom the Department of Integrative Biology. So, you mentioned that you came to Berkeley with the intent of being a science communicator?ElShafie: Yeah.Saintsing: Of pursuing some kind of leadership position in science outreach?ElShafie: When I came to Berkeley my, my long-term goal was to become like the director of a major science museum or science outreach nonprofit, something along those lines, and I knew that to do that I would, it would be really helpful if I had a PhD in science. People in those positions tend to be either previous professors or curators at museums or past CEOs or university presidents and I wasn't interested in the latter two so much, but I really wanted I wanted to learn more science. I wanted to get the highest scientific training, so that's why I came here to do my PhD because I was very upfront about my career aspirations in my interviews for PhD programs and when I came to Berkeley, they were just totally supportive of that. My advisor was very supportive, the people at the UC Museum of Paleontology that I spoke with were very supportive. So, I, that's why I came here and also because being in the Department of Integrative Biology, which has this wonderful resource, the Berkeley Natural History Museums. We have a paleontology museum; a zoology museum, the Museum of Vertebrate Zoology; plus an herbarium, the Jepson Herbarium; and the Essig Museum of Entomology with all the insects. We have all of those in-house, right in our own department, and, and all those museums, especially UCMP, is very, very active with science outreach. So, I realized that by coming to Integrative Biology at Berkeley, I could not only be doing my dissertation, which, Integrative Biology was perfect because I wanted to do research that integrated several different fields together, but also, I could be learning from these museum educators and people who do a lot of science outreach and community outreach. So, it was kind of like getting training in both areas at the same time.Saintsing: Right, so you graduated from undergrad knowing that you wanted to do science communication then, or was that more of a kind of developing process?ElShafie: I would say it was an ongoing process. I did my undergraduate work at the University of Chicago. I'm from Chicago originally, and, and I had a great experience at U Chicago. I was working in, at the UC, a new Chicago fossil lab there for years as an undergrad, and I did some research for a thesis and everything, but through that fossil lab, I also had the opportunity to participate in a lot of science outreach with Chicago Public Schools after school and summer science programs, and I really enjoyed that and I loved seeing the transformation that the students would go through just coming in not really sure if science is for them and then leaving much more empowered in general. Not just in seeing themselves as scientists. So, I knew that I wanted that type of work to be a big part of my career as I was graduating undergrad, and then when I went into my master's program which was at the University of Nebraska in Lincoln, coming in I knew that I wanted to pursue more scientific research and get my graduate degree, but one semester in I realized I think I actually want the outreach to be my main focus. I was really jazzed about the research I was doing. I was really enjoying it, but I was starting to realize that my primary passion was not just doing the science but actually sharing the science with other people who might not have access to it yet or might not be familiar with it or see themselves as, as scientists or understand the role that science plays in their lives. That was really my, my main focus that I wanted to take, but I also know I wanted the scientific training so I finished my masters in Nebraska, and fortunately my, my master's advisor in Nebraska was very supportive of that realization in that aspiration, and he basically said, hey if you want to be the bridge between science and the public, awesome. We need more people like that. Get your masters in science first because that'll open more doors to you down the road, but while you're here start exploring and figure out what that career path might look like for you. And, I was doing a lot of my data collection for my master's thesis in collections at natural history museums around the country, and through that, I was kind of reminded how much I love working with museums and loved being in museums and because that was a big part of my childhood growing up in Chicago which has great museums and zoos and aquaria and such. So, I knew that I wanted to work with museums and an informal education in some capacity and kind of by the time I finished my Master's, I had realized, yeah, I think I want to pursue a leadership position with a museum or some science outreach program because there seems to be a really big demand for people who can fill those positions, people who can wear the science hat but also have a lot of outreach, education, communication experience and also who understand how to manage a team and manage a budget.Saintsing: So, you would say that as a child it was probably your experiences going to museums that sparked this whole career interest in science and in science communication?ElShafie: Definitely, I would always be begging my parents to take me to the Field Museum or the Shedd Aquarium or the Brookfield Zoo or the Museum of Science and Industry. Growing up in Chicago those were like my favorite places to hang out, and, and in addition, I would visit my parents or my grandparents down in the Florida Keys every winter. They would spend the winters down there, and my grandfather was a fisherman, and he used to take me out on his fishing boat, and I would snorkel off of his boat and we would see dolphins jumping around, and I just, I think that's, that's the earliest memory that I have as a child, when I was like six and he took us out on Christmas Day and all these, this whole pod of dolphins came and jumped all around us and it was just the most magical thing I've ever had in my six-year-old memory. That's when I really fell in love with nature and animals, and I've been hooked ever since, and, and the specific focus has kind of changed over the course of my life from marine biology for a long time to paleontology to herpetology now, working with reptiles and, and kind of global change more broadly. And then, science communication and science outreach I think has always been part of my interest because I love to share my passion for nature with other people, and so, now it's kind of it's all come together now, working on my PhD and even tying in my interest in film, working with film artists and different kinds of artists as part of the science communication work. So, it's been a lot of fun.Saintsing: All right, I was gonna ask, so as a kid you really liked talking about science?ElShafie: Yeah.Saintsing: So, you're probably just telling everybody non-stop about all the cool scientific things you were learning?ElShafie: Oh, sure. Anybody who wanted or didn't want to know about dolphins and sharks and lizards and whatever I was reading about at the time. Yeah, I love that stuff.Saintsing: But then, you mentioned earlier, part of the reason why you started getting more interested in, at least the, what you wrote the article that you published with the symposium, that was partially to help you understand how to communicate science in some ways.ElShafie: Yeah, absolutely.Saintsing: So, would you say that maybe it's harder to communicate the science that you're actually doing than just to share scientific facts you're learning?ElShafie: Definitely. You've hit the nail on the head. I think it's, it's really fun and easy to just like share cool facts about animals because animals are very cool and there's lots of cool facts that you can share about them just you know in, in conversation, but when you're doing scientific research, especially, you know, long term in-depth scientific research, the specific questions of which might be a little bit more removed from people's everyday experience, it is a lot harder to figure out how to share that in an engaging way with other people you know. When I started my program here, if you asked me what's your research about, I would have jumped immediately into a detailed, jargon-laden explanation of how I study these lizards that lived 45 million years ago, and, and their body size got much bigger as the mean annual paleo temperature got a lot hotter in the Eocene and, and etc. And, you know, when I used to give that explanation to my family members, who are like farmers in rural Maryland, or my family members in Egypt on my dad's side, they would nod politely and, and be excited for me because I was clearly excited about it, but they couldn't relate to it at all because I wasn't connecting it to anything that they could relate to. So, now when people ask me what do you study I just start with, I study how climate change impacts animals over time. That's it.Saintsing: Right.ElShafie: And then, if they're really that interested, then maybe I would get into that I also use fossils, and if they're more interested, then maybe we get to the point of: I study reptiles and some of the details that we discussed earlier. But, it's, you know, it's, you almost have to unlearn a little bit of how you're trained to talk about your science as a graduate student. I think that's why it's really important for science communication training to be part of any graduate training program, no matter what your field is, especially if you're, if you're in a STEM field, if you're training to be some kind of scientist because it's when we write our, you know, technical papers we have to talk about science in a particular way, but even there having some story structure can really help the paper flow, but when you're talking about science with broader audiences, especially non-specialist audiences or even scientists outside of your own field, it really helps if you can start at a more general level where everybody can, can clue in and, and relate to what you're saying and then you get into more detail from there as, as needed. But, you don't even need to go to that level of detail in most cases. People just want the general sense of what you're doing. I think the most important thing to keep in mind is who is your audience, who are you talking to, and what is your goal for that audience, what do you want them to take away from your interaction with them, and that might be something specific like, I want them to understand what's really cool about this method I'm using. It might be more general like I simply want this person to understand that I'm a human being who cares about the same things that they do.Saintsing: Right, we're coming up at the end of our interview. Typically at the end of the interview we just offer our guests a moment to speak on any issue they'd like to speak about, about social issues or about their topic, their research area in science, or really anything you'd like to address to the listeners.ElShafie: Sure. Appreciate it. I would love to say to anybody listening who is not currently in a science graduate degree program but if you're interested in science in any capacity then I hope that you pursue that interest in some form, whether it's pursuing a degree in science or even just learning about whatever scientific field you're interested in, and, and I encourage you to bring your other interests into that as well. I think the, the best scientists I know who are the most creative about how they approach their science are those who are interested in lots of different things, and, and, and vice versa. So, I think combining interests in lots of different fields is actually a really, it's, it's a great way to enrich your work no matter what you do, and, and scientists want to meet you, and scientists want to talk to you no matter what it is you do. We love, we love talking about science, but we also love learning about other things other than science because that just enriches our perspective about how we approach science. So, if you're an artist, if you're an educator, if you're a farmer, if you are whoever you are no matter what you do, please come chat with us because we'd love to meet you, and if you're a scientist listening, I really encourage you to step outside of academia as often as you can, especially if you're a graduate student or postdoc, you know. Don't wait until you finish your degree or until you get your career up and running. It already is running, and I think the more you meet and interact with people outside of science, the better scientist you will be because it will, you learn how other people think and that's really important for science communication, but it also just enriches your perspective and enhances your appreciation for what you do, and it's also a lot of fun, and especially if you have interests outside of science whether it's a hobby or another field or whatever it is, don't wait to dabble in that. Get involved with it. Take a class. Read a book. Join a group. Whatever it is, get involved with that now because being involved in lots of different things and expanding your horizons while you're in grad school is really great for your mental and emotional health, and, and it also just gives you a broader sense of how you can use your scientific training in the world, whether you want to pursue academia or potentially something else.Saintsing: Right, open dialogue with people who don't study the same thing as you, who are coming from different backgrounds, that would be good not just for scientists but for everyone, right?ElShafie: Mm-hmm.Saintsing: Yeah, but yeah especially for scientists. That's a great message, Sara. Thank you so much for being on the show. It was really great.ElShafie: It was a lot of fun talking to you today. Thank you so much for having me.Saintsing: I've been speaking with SaraElShafiefrom the Department of Integrative Biology. We were speaking about her interest in global climate change and how she communicates her science to the public. Tune in and two weeks for the next episode of The Graduates.