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Ex-Satanist Turned Pastor Talks About Forgiveness, Parenthood, & Faith
Ep. 417
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In this episode, Pastor Josef shares a story that is almost impossible to believe. Growing up in a home filled with abuse, violence, and fear, he carried a deep hatred toward his father from a very young age. By the age of seven, he had already decided that one day he would kill him. What followed was a life shaped by anger, revenge, and a constant fear of becoming the very man he despised. This conversation is about trauma, forgiveness, redemption, and the power of breaking generational cycles.
We also dive into Pastor Josef's journey from violence and darkness to faith and healing. He opens up about his experiences with witchcraft, how a simple invitation to a Bible study changed the course of his life, and the difficult process of forgiving a father who never knew the depth of his son's pain. As a pastor, husband, and father, he shares the lessons he learned about identity, faith, fatherhood, and what it truly means to heal from the wounds of the past.
We discuss:
• Growing up in an abusive household
• Why he feared becoming a husband and father
• The moment he decided he wanted to kill his father
• Why forgiveness took years to happen
• The conversation that changed his relationship with his father forever
• Breaking generational cycles of abuse
• What fatherhood has taught him about God's love
If you've ever struggled with family wounds, forgiveness, resentment, or the fear of becoming the person who hurt you... this episode is for you.
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