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Re-Mothered

Candles

Season 1, Ep. 7

Birthdays are supposed to bless—not test. I woke up with a clean kind of hope and ended the day reading a room like a budget. On the farm: fried patties, boiled potatoes, gifts with price tags spoken out loud, and a mask I didn’t choose. In Edmonton: my Gram and Pa’s house glowed—gifts without secrets, a table that always had room. Between performance and belonging, I learned why “happy birthday” sometimes sounded like “perform correctly.” As I turn forty-eight, I’m reclaiming the ritual—choosing the house that felt like my heart and rebuilding it where I live now.

Content note: family conflict, enmeshment/triangulation, gaslighting dynamics (non-graphic).

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