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What I Wish I'd Known

Maggie O’Farrell

Season 6, Ep. 5

In this episode of What I Wish I’d Known, we hear the novelist, Maggie O’Farrell, reflect on the misfortunes and sliding door moments that have put her life at risk. From a fatal illness she suffered with as a child, to nearly drowning as a teenager and her encounter with a stranger on a dark night- who she later found out was a murderer. 

WARNING: contains some strong language and discussion of sensitive topics including: Death, illness, injury, abuse

Series producer: Anya Pearce

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