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My Mom Died
Why Do I Think About Death All the Time After Losing Someone
Season 2, Ep. 9
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After losing someone, grief doesn't just change how you mourn. It changes how you see everything. In this episode of My Mom Died, Gabri Segui talks about what happens when death stops being an idea and becomes a reality you carry into every relationship, every milestone, every ordinary moment. She reads a poem she wrote about grieving futures that haven't happened yet, talks about the anxiety of loving someone when you know loss is possible, and shares the most important distinction she has learned: awareness deepens life, but obsession steals it. This episode ends with a reframe that will change how you think about grief entirely.
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