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24. Four Years Without My Mom. Here Is What I Know Now.
15:52||Season 1, Ep. 24Four years ago today, Gabri lost her mom, Jennifer. In this episode, she is not bringing a guest, a framework, or a list of tips. She is sitting down and telling you exactly what four years of grief actually looks and feels like from the inside.Gabri walks through the four stages she has lived: year one, she survived, year two she unraveled, year three she rebuilt, and year four she carries. She talks about what has permanently changed in her, how she talks about her mom differently now, and the small things she still misses most, including the specific way her mom said her name.She also speaks directly to anyone stepping into their first year of grief with something she wishes someone had told her: what you are feeling is not failure. It is a reaction to a separation you did not agree to. And eventually, if you let it, grief can become a superpower.This episode also includes a note that My Mom Died will be taking a short break from releasing episodes. Follow on social media to stay connected in the meantime.If you are in the middle of your grief right now and cannot see the other side, this episode is for you.
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23. My Boss Said This To Me During My Performance Review After My Mom Died
22:35||Season 1, Ep. 23In this episode of My Mom Died, Gabri is joined by her best friend, Kelli Martin, for a full reaction episode. Kelli lost her dad, Scotty, at just 11 years old and is 12 years into her grief journey, making her the perfect co-pilot for this one.A few weeks ago, Gabri asked her community to share the most unhinged things people ever said to them while grieving. The comments came pouring in. In this episode, they read them out loud and react in real time, and nothing is off limits.From "everything happens for a reason" to "you've really changed since your mom died" (said during an actual performance review), to a priest calling grieving siblings orphans mid-funeral, to a librarian asking for overdue books back at a viewing, the stories are absurd, painful, and somehow also hilarious. Gabri and Kelli break down why these phrases land so wrong, what people actually mean when they say them, and why grace has to go both ways.If you have ever been on the receiving end of a completely out-of-pocket grief comment, this episode is going to feel extremely validating.
22. Will It Feel Like This Forever? The Truth About Early Grief
11:25||Season 1, Ep. 22In this episode of My Mom Died, Gabri speaks directly to people in the earliest stage of grief, the hours and days right after a loss when everything feels surreal, time is distorted, and the body goes into shock. She describes what early grief can feel like, including numbness, brain fog, waves of emotion, and the fear that this intensity will last forever.Gabri keeps it practical. She explains that there is no correct way to respond, that the goal is simply to get through the next few minutes or hours, and that early grief can be unpredictable. She also shares a short survival checklist for the newly bereaved: drink water, sleep when possible, accept practical help, and try not to isolate.If someone just sent this episode to a person who is newly bereaved, it is meant to be a foundation, not a lecture. If listening is too hard today, it is okay to come back later.
21. “You’re So Strong” Is Ruining Your Grief (How to Stop Performing)
16:35||Season 1, Ep. 21In this episode of My Mom Died, Gabri talks about the version of grief nobody warns you about: the pressure to look “strong” when you are falling apart. She breaks down how strength after loss can turn into a performance, a role you play to keep things normal for everyone else, even when you feel wrecked inside.Gabri shares what it looked like for her, from pushing through and staying busy to automatically answering “I’m good” just to avoid making people uncomfortable. Then she flips the script with a practical “Stop Performing Strength” checklist that helps grievers notice the habits that keep them stuck, and replace them with language and boundaries that actually support healing.If you feel like you have to be the strong one, the reliable one, the “doing so well” one after losing someone, this episode is for you.
20. What Grief Does to Your Body, and Why Movement Helps
20:10||Season 1, Ep. 20In this episode of My Mom Died, Gabri breaks down the part of grief that people rarely explain: grief is not only emotional, but it is also physical. She shares what happened in her first year after loss, including survival mode, disrupted sleep, anxiety, and how her body stopped feeling safe.Gabri explains the science of early grief, including how grief can keep the body in fight or flight and why it can feel like a tight chest, racing heart, exhaustion, and random anxiety attacks.She also talks about how the brain can process grief like physical pain and why “it physically hurts” is not dramatic.Then Gabri gets practical. She shares why movement became the fastest way she could calm her nervous system, rebuild self-trust, and slowly shift her mental health, starting with walks and eventually building a gym routine.If grief has been showing up in your body, and you feel stuck on the couch, this episode is for you.
19. I Was Angry at God After My Mom Died (Then This Happened)
29:55||Season 1, Ep. 19A lot of people might not want to hear this, but this episode is about the part of my grief journey I was scared to share out loud: faith. I’m not sharing this because I think it’s the only path to healing, and I’m not here to push anything on you. I’m sharing it because it’s a major part of my story, and grief changed my relationship with God in a way I never expected.I grew up Catholic, drifted from church in college, and honestly didn’t even know how to pray beyond the basics. Then my mom had a heart attack, and I found myself on my knees by her bedside asking God, “What do you mean?” I wasn’t calm. I wasn’t polished. I was angry. And when people kept saying “thoughts and prayers,” it felt like salt in the wound.This episode is about how faith became complicated, how community became a lifeline, why “Jesus wept” changed how I view grief, and what it looked like to try again even when I felt ridiculous.If loss made you closer to faith or made faith harder, you’re not alone.
18. “Read the Room” Was Not About You: Grief, Boundaries, and the Comments I Didn’t Expect
12:45||Season 1, Ep. 18I posted a clip that I truly did not think would be controversial. It was a simple point: sometimes you have to read the room and not complain about your mom to someone who just lost theirs. Then the comments went in a completely different direction, and honestly, some of y’all were right to challenge me.So in this episode, we’re talking about the part nobody wants to admit: grief is not black and white. Some people have moms who hurt them. Some people are grieving parents who are still alive. Some people can “hold space” every time. And some days, you cannot. Both can be true.We unpack what I meant, what I missed, and how to support a grieving friend without making it about you. We also talk about emotional capacity, boundaries, and why people in grief sometimes go quiet, get sharp, or just cannot carry one more complaint.If you have ever felt guilty for not having the energy to show up, or confused about what is “allowed” to be shared around someone grieving, this episode is for you.