Lost The Plot

In 2009, People Magazine called to tell me they wanted to include me in their Most Beautiful issue. I did a little happy dance. And then they told me what the photoshoot involved...Bare faces. No makeup. Just skin.I said yes. Of course I said yes. My castmates were doing it. My publicist wanted me to. What was I going to say? But what I didn't say — not to my publicist, not to my castmates, not to the millions of people who were about to see my face — was that I had been hiding something on and off camera since I was 13 years old.In this episode I'm talking about my rosacea diagnosis, what 17+ years of managing it on camera actually looked like, and why a condition that isn't life-threatening can quietly put a tax on some of the most significant moments of your life — a People Magazine shoot, giving birth, jumping in the pool with your kids — without you even realizing how heavy it's gotten until you look back.I'm also sharing the accidental viral moment that made me realise I wasn't the only one. The product I've been secretly using all over my face for years. And what I'm building right now for every woman who has been carrying her version of this quietly.This episode isn't just for the red-faced girlies. It's for anyone who's been managing something invisible that the world keeps asking you to explain — and who's ready to stop letting it run the show.

Before the manifestation theories, the vision boards, and the law of attraction content flooding your feed — there was a 22-year-old girl sitting in a shuttle van in New Orleans, Googling her new boyfriend next to Emma Roberts, and having her entire understanding of the universe rearranged in about 30 seconds.In this episode, I'm taking you back to a film set with The Rock, Liam Hemsworth and Emma Roberts, sharing the glitch in the matrix moment that still gives me chills, and unpacking — in my own words — what I actually believe manifestation is and why most of us are doing it wrong.This isn't about toxic positivity or asking the universe for favors. It's about the difference between wanting something and knowing it's already yours. About what happens when life, rejection and the industry chip away at that knowing. And about the six words an audition coach said to me that I've never forgotten.If you grew up watching 90210 or Degrassi, if you've ever traded your sense of wonder for a to-do list, or if you're rebuilding your self belief in your own second act — this one's for you.

This episode is the definition of "Off-Script."Today, my husband, Josh Beech, joins me to tell the story of our honeymoon— the romantic getaway that started with a literal 💩 show and left us with zero dignity but a bond rooted "in sickness" and in health.If you’ve ever had a moment where the highlight reel hit a wall of cold, hard reality, this one is for you. If you have a weak stomach... it may not be.You’ve been warned.A core pillar of our marriage is finding the humor in both the highs and lows because sometimes, it's the only way to survive the plot twists of life.

There is a specific lie we tell women the second they become mothers: that their ambition is supposed to go into a quiet retirement. We’re pressured to trade our drive for "selfless devotion" and pretend that "Mom" is the only title we’ll ever need to feel whole again.I’m calling bullshit.In Episode 6, I’m taking you behind the scenes of my first time back on a film set in over five years. Between weaning my son and battling "bad professional" guilt, I realized I wasn’t missing my cocky 20-something self—I was missing a piece of me I didn’t even know was gone.The pregnancy season and the newborn bubble weren't the end of the story; they were just the intermission. Now that the second act has started, I'm realizing that having boundaries and clarity doesn't make me a "lesser" version of myself. It makes me a more dangerous one.

In this episode, I’m performing an Identity Audit. We’re deconstructing the lie of "consistency" and why your need to "fit in a box" is actually the thing killing your growth.I have a confession: I’ve been keeping a dead person on life support for a decade. Following the response to my "Leaving Hollywood" story in People Magazine, I realized that the reason most of us are exhausted isn't a lack of talent—it's that we're trying to perform a version of ourselves that doesn't exist anymore.

The morning after I got the call that started the rest of my life, I did something that shocked everyone in my life.In this episode I'm talking about the grafter mentality that has quietly shaped every decision of my career — the instinct to never be precious about the groundwork, to show up even when you don't have to, to never think you're above the room. It's something I was wired with from the beginning and it's the thing I'm most proud of.But I'm also talking about what happened after. Because the years of rejection that followed 90210 didn't just humble me — they took something else with them. And for a long time I confused the two.There's a difference between losing your ego and losing your sense of self worth. Ego can and should go. Making decisions without ego is healthy and necessary. But self worth is something else entirely — and I let that go, too, without even noticing.This episode is about the years it took to get it back. And why rebuilding your confidence without re-inflating your ego is, honestly, the secret sauce to everything.

I spent my youth playing characters on scripts written by others. At 36, I’m finally taking the lead in my own story—unscripted and unapologetic.In 2020, I made a choice that many in the entertainment industry called a mistake: I blew up my life in LA and moved my family to a small town in Tennessee. I was looking for safety, comfort, and a "quieter path," but I wasn't prepared for the culture shock of the Bible Belt or the "fish out of water" feeling of living somewhere that didn't mirror my city-girl roots.Today, I’m sharing why I almost ran back to California, the reality of choosing "peace" over "ego," and how I’m building a community in a place where I thought I’d always be an outsider.

Now that I’m 36, I’m realizing how incomplete that picture really was.In this episode of **Lost The Plot**, I’m unpacking the quiet panic so many women experience in their 30s — the feeling that somehow we’re behind, that we should have life “figured out” by now, and the surprising moment when we start seeing our parents’ lives in a completely different light.Looking back at my own mom’s journey and my own 20s, I’ve started to realize something: the version of adulthood we thought we saw growing up was often just the surface. Behind it were pivots, sacrifices, reinventions, and hard decisions we were too young to understand at the time.So why does it feel like everyone else has it together… while we’re still figuring it out?This episode is about identity, expectations, and the strange but powerful moment when you realize maybe you’re not behind — maybe you’re just finally awake.If you’ve ever questioned your timeline, your career, your relationships, or whether you’re doing life “right,” you’re definitely not the only one.