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Finding God in the Middle of the Mess with Sunny Mahe

Season 1, Ep. 29

What if your greatest trials were actually the starting point of your most sacred transformation?


In this episode of Lean In With Lizzy, Lizzy sits down with Sunny Mahe - former collegiate athlete, NFL wife, and mother of ten - for a raw and moving conversation about redefining identity, finding purpose after loss, and trusting God when everything feels uncertain. Sunny opens up about stepping away from Olympic dreams to embrace motherhood, losing her financial footing after the NFL, and ultimately, walking through the heartbreaking loss of her three-year-old daughter, Elsie.


She shares the small miracles that carried her through - from half a cow showing up on her doorstep to life-changing spiritual impressions - and why her definition of success now has nothing to do with applause or accolades. If you’ve ever questioned your worth during quiet seasons, or wondered if God sees you in your lowest moment, this episode will meet you right where you are.


Connect with Sunny Mahe:

Instagram: @sunnymahe


Connect with Lizzy Jensen:

Instagram: @leaninwithlizzy & @lizzy.jensen

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