Integrated Awakenings with Maria

I CANT BELIEVE I HAVEN’T HAD AN EPISODE ON THIS. In this ep of Integrated Awakenings Maria covers a few unexpected examples of how spirits/god/love “sees you” and your truth. Often times, a radical self-knowing and acceptance, is cushioned with out accountability, or the emphasis of being able to advocate your gifts and your work. Maria covers the necessary labor of coming into really knowing oneself, and finding the language of temperance to meaningfully participate in the world around you. They also cover some recent collective initiations around the HARA-it’s potent shadows, as well as being able to temper it’s teethful strength with the heart of the maiden-empress. (taurus scorp axis). If you’ve been needing to resource and root back to yourself lately then this is the ep. Covers:intro‘something majorly wrong about me’/ the curse is a gift you must learn to wieldmaria example & chaospwede mo naman hanapin sarili mo pero kasama mo naman sarili mo paratithe most expensive thing you can do, is what feels like play to you unsung traits: invisibility, plainness, simple beautynecessary temperance and advocating for ones giftswho am i when the social goop is so AMORPHOUS?who am i when i am so Multiple?what if you just go Total? Absoluteritualized killing, violence, wow I have violence too? death energies…heat,hate, heat wave, detox, strength & temperance.heart-warrior archetypes, matriarchs and mama maryclear seeing, heart led, but your will? mentioned: Multiple Selveshttps://open.spotify.com/episode/3fSJywVxzxpgpBi5Nh2g5l?si=ed4f3b65e9e749f7 Soulful Business https://open.spotify.com/episode/6v5ptfUINbTu91zMh58KZk?si=8e97ff8a394b44e4Who’s screwing you? Screwed by Janelle Monaehttps://open.spotify.com/track/1Z2MfAx1nJ09NzGjodnvRW?si=3256f88eb79747e3——If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_mariamison.io

In this solo-cast of Integrated Awakenings, we’ll be covering very useful developmental concepts with regards to how and why parents seem to be such a source of disappointment, trauma and unhealthy patterns we bring even to old age. Is adulthood always marked by this loss of innocence? Does anybody ever really grow up? What if our parents still act like children, what grief is that now? This episode offers a spiritual dimension to the natural projection and individuation of the psyche, and how our early symbols of divine mother/father/parent/love always have a fall from grace when we realize their very present humanity. If you find yourself dealing trapped in cyclical parental dynamics (from any end), or meeting the grief of adulthood, then this episode will surely offer you holistic insight. Covers: intro, natural rhythms, natural projectionsfantasy, unan/uni/pillow as early childhood consolationthere’s nothing wrong with projection/pedestaling/mythic love it’s not All of Love thoughrelease all judgement with regards to pace to when this happensconnect this to more journey/depth podcast eps that connected with inner child, divine femme/masc processthe masculine and vulnerable anger, twin faces of anger and depressioncrisis and thunder as a calm opportunity for changethe grief of the lack of eldership/wisdom keepers on a societal level, generational disappointmentcomplex mom story and how it’s okay to be a bad parent lack of language, coexisting with the dream/ephemeral and the reality/imperfection——-Other Episodes Mentioned:Childhttps://open.spotify.com/episode/2yl7UtvhVokRLdEqwBNU1U?si=2f727fe6c7714784Divine Motherhttps://open.spotify.com/episode/6ut017B0xQUJBJJj1ycY5M?si=138dba685abf4e74Divine Fatherhttps://open.spotify.com/episode/4t6odRKwunCq3Zu6JWwGvp?si=7fd8842e1c0849d9Divine Marriagehttps://open.spotify.com/episode/3noVUCDTW2hUyM1V88Buew?si=87e48669bc254678——If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_mariamison.io

In this new podcast episode we have as our guest, Nix, a practicing korean folk-shaman and anthropologist sitting us down and easefully combing for us the core differences in thinking around western and eastern mystical-spiritual practices. We have a holistic discussion on how western philosophy may relate to things via pictures (the snapshot of a situation - eg: a tarot spread) versus the dynamic and relational philosophy of taoist-confuscian-shamanic iching reading of the same situation. ( a moving picture, eg: fengshui, an iching cast). In this episode she also shares some of her unique practices, as someone who has grown up in the Philippines and is also a considered a “feminine” practitioner of “masculine” disciplines/texts, AS WELL AS other significant practices such as exorcisms, numerology, dream interpretation and modernizations of these practices and more. If you’ve ever felt confused by traditional chinese medicine, want to reconnect to the energies and general philosophies that are the bedrock of east asian mysticism and medicine then this is a great place to start! (A good grasp of western tarot though would be best) I can also vouch that nix emits such a grounded and clear state of being that was such a joy to be able to share with the rest of the audience. Please enjoy!PS: this is in taglish, also we talk slightly fast with dense info so feel free to pause very generously Covers:Intro, backgrounder on Nix’ experiencekorean shamanism is more traditional since neo-confucianism didnt happen in korea (too strict about gender roles instead of it being symbolic)collective > individual, re-balancing a system/body harmoniouslyrelational eastern astrology vs western astrology4 elements vs 5 phases (even vs odd, static vs changing) western one life and swift results vs reincarnation (eg: bonsai)stills/snapshots vs a moviehow the elements are different between systems emotions with regards to organs and temperaturespleen, horror and ancestors, indian and sanskrit influencesdiabetes viewed in west vs eastdreamwork, special dreams, kitsune etcattracting spirits and ancestor worship, animal associationssigil craft, warnings against cults, eternal change, syncretismquestions > comfortable answers, numerology and punscollective reading (with a demo constructive and destructive spread)not! final thoughts——If you have specific questions for nix/want to reach out please do message maria and we’ll let her know! If you want a chinese astrological reading, or access to the holistic healthcare clinic of her mother I can link it to you once yall message. ——If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_mariamison.io

This is not a podcast ep! THIS IS A POWERFUL SESSION. In this episode we have Maya Banawa conducting a healing ceremony for Maria’s voice, intuitively feeling into, and sharing her process of guiding people into unlocking their authentic voice. For this session, what was released were warrior chantings, ancestral rememberings, child embracings — and meanderings around frogcroaks and what is really considered “a bad romance”. If you feel like you are drawn to creatively express and heal via your voice, AND/OR you want to listen into the navel root songs of a warrior heart tribes arriving, then this is the podcast in you. Our authentic soul’s music, invites your soul’s music too. (PS: maria considers this part of creativity as spiritual discipline series: this is a demo for song and sound)Covers:Intro, invoking the sun and environmentSelecting a song and reflecting on it’s depth and meaningWhat is a “Bad Romance?”, projections, judgements, wantingListening and Journeying with “Genuine You” (00:48min mark)Toning for organs and body Warrior chants with assisted drumming (includes ancestral healing and innerchild work)Closing RemarksPoetry/Rap enchanting chantings (1hr:59min mark)---Maya’s Socials, book her to unlock your own soundinstagram.com/mayasongbirdinstagram.com/genuine_youniverse---If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_mariamison.io

In this very special episode we have Puki Maanawhari, a punong babaylan (with 11 years of experience) residing in metro manila, binabaylan mother of the coven of modern babaylan and alabays (babaylan in training) and very important resource with regards to babaylang history and experience. We cover very important and a wide range of topics with regards to babaylan terminology, initiation, their traumatic history, it’s accessibility, and it’s aesthetic appropriation in the arts and in queer terminology. This is a very candid approach with regards to having a working relationship with land spirits, rituals, and the realities of guarding a closed practice. If you are any type of healer, in the process of decolonization, and/or simply curious about the lineage/culture of magick that is held by the babaylan in the philippines and south east asia then this is a must-listen for you.As this is an often marginalized culture, I would like to personally request listeners to come to this with an open and receptive energy, as well as to be a respectful advocate of indigenous healing practices, cultures and who and what is considered “babaylan” vis a vis terms like “shaman” “energy healer” etc. This ep covers:differentiating babaylan: indigenous practitioners, women shamansthe marginalization panawag tawag session, sapi ng ancestral fore fathers and fore mothers puki’s series of strokes as shamanic initiation, her “tupadan”spirit guide = gabay, abyan, gabyandianmasalanta, maria makiling bundok at dietyskipping generations and baon: a physical stone of heritage (like darna)knowing names like estrella, tagsagod kalibutan, guide of the universepreparation for panawag tawag sessions and other requirementsvery specific direct relationship with a lineage and not just a symbol/archetypehow does spirit/babaylan lineage see us now? fall and rise of babaylan populationprotection protocols of earning wisdom, and indigenous knowledge, this research is for you not for us?spirits need our help too! some of em depressed af, the broken nerve in metro manila area lineage of babaylanculture that is rooted in place, international lineages, are you the “power”, spirits choosing locationseveryone can be babaylan: primary and secondary babaylans, proper use of the word divine feminine practice, history of male babaylans (decoys) and trans, queer baylansakashic records /taga-alam access, lgbt icons “asog”/katalonan, ambaling lagi/lagun, masculine female trans-masclocal myths and elementals being misrepresented, humans colonizing a spiritual world?, speaking for the land and to genuinely ground a “colonized” bodyco-existing with spirit and it’s not make-believeclosing invitations!—ReferencesBabaylan Sing Back by Grace nonoMultiple soul ep: https://open.spotify.com/episode/3fSJywVxzxpgpBi5Nh2g5l?si=e54adce1177d4fee----If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_

In this podcast episode maria goes through one of the most underrated skillsets for holding space, group workshops, and institutional dynamics: the grace of excellent facilitation. Maria walks you through an easy to follow framework of priming, generating, guiding, closing and enabling to make sure that folks feel seen and involved in the many instances that group dynamics, cooperation and education is sorely needed. If you ever feel overwhelmed with handling groups, or feel like you’re not deeply engaging your clients and/or groups then this is the podcast for you!Covers:Intro, general structure and flow for facilitation(1) activating, priming, prep - questions that presence the person into the class(2) generative, open and weaving questions/prompts(3) summarising, reflecting the emergent themes/ learnings, what was evoked?(4) seeding a theme/lesson/technique/ “lesson content” (what people typically consider as “content” of the session) Eg: BME model for a theater class, clarity and alignment of this choiceApply/do things immediately with them to ACTIVATE people’s Will/hara(5) reflecting/sharing and the vulnerabillity/politik of the shared space, emphasis in the process as already a learning mechanism, speaking to one person and the group at the same timeImage: spiralling permeable circles, focus but also what’s around it?(6) a good close (reviews and condensing, grounding questions), the irl gap of applicability? if i leave knowledge inert i end up distrusting learning…get disappointed faster, meet them where they’re atthe students are the material??? process as revelation—Metioned linksBDSM and consent podcast - https://open.spotify.com/episode/1FQOqpZRC15expX1FdRdNX?si=8866d36b225249cb----If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_

In this very special episode we’ve got not one! But TWO people talking about what it’s like to live a life as a multi-soul (they/themz) magnificence, and what’s the deal on how it is similiar and dissimilar to queerness, neurodivergence, DID (dissociative identity disorder), parts work/internal family systems and just overall! expanded notions of being. So many spiritual circles keep interrogating a singular self — when a lot of local cultures (we talk about this in podcast) have such a multiple/twinned notions of our spirits and we’re really here to weave prod and walk around with you other definitions of existing in a singular body. We talk about how personalities fissure in trauma, how they synergize, how walk-ins happen and just what it’s like to live an authentic, and TOTALLY fractaled self. I am personally so grateful for the space Janelle has held for me in being totally comfortable in authenticity, so I really hope y’all enjoy the stories and insights we share in this podcast.Sidenote: This podcast has key sections that are in tagalog. For international listeners I feel like this is still mostly! accessible with context clues. PPS: this podcast ep has a bit of barking dogs thank you for your patience they are guests hehehcovers: intro to multi-soul theory, maria’s story, janelle’s story & DID, neurodivergenceis “self” singular?, my inner … the value of synergy amongst parts and variety, acceptancenegotiating various needs and desires, being a full range of experiencesoulwork, shamanic work, everyday life with multiple soulsnew to being human, why be human?limits of a pesona - what is a self?hacks to manage multiplicity: attuning to the body, chats, piccrewssocial construction of identity, “it gets bigger than me”multifaceted crystals, fractals, allowing yourself to be moreyour darkness can be somebody else’s lightJanelle’s Accounthttps://www.instagram.com/hellspawnedkitten/kittenfromhell.carrd.co—-references:Your Multiple Souls - Ruth RendleyVideo essay on social constructions of identity - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yeyyEFp1J4----If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_

This has to be one of my favorite podcasts ever and one I’ve wanting to talk about for so long we talk about: kink, consent, a lot of sexual healing via such “lower” chakra practices. We talk about sex as an energy, as creativity, as about control, power, release and we cover even a few sacramental practices with regards to offering sexual/jing energy and the like. We also relate the rituals of learning consent, actually sitting down and sifting through our desires, and many modes of constant checking-in and considerations done to make any kind of kinky or even emotionally vulnerable space — safer and more enjoyable! (Maria relates this to games, and art making being more safety process oriented). Azaza also shares key radicalizations in terms of really realizing what power is, inside of relationships. THIS IS A MUST LISTEN, to anyone who like sex, relationship and any kind of play, do let us know what y’all pick up from this!Language Note: a lot of key terms are in tagalog, this ep is in taglishCovers:How she got into it, ethical hedonist, QUEER presencingsex as creativity, other kinds of babiesreclaiming control, surrender, spiritual sex, womb workmenstruation, period blood magickthemes around kink: control, intimacy, limitsvetting partners, professional partnerssubspace is like journeys, creating safety, after-care, surgery fore-thoughtmental safety, contracts, how this translates as well to other contextsvirtual kink, vulnerability doesn't always equate to safetyexpressing desires, boundaries discussion, safety in games and theatersafety tools, language, lines, traffic systems, necessary communicationhaving space for shame without being shamed for itneurodivergent comfort in rules and kink, having kink tables with work! family! yourself!rituals for sharing power, checking in, presencing other people's desiresbeing said no to is that they feel safe enough to express their boundaries; a holy trust of receiving a nounraveling stories around power, and bodies of women and how much space/desire one can havePOWER SAFETY CONSENT! DRAWING LINES! KNOWING YOURSELF--Shibari PHhttps://shibari.ph/resources/Azaza's Socialshttps://www.instagram.com/_brialanae/Sample Lines list for GamesSample Table for BDSM ----If you appreciate this kind of work send tips here: paypal ,You can support monthly here: patreon (this also has a library of game writing)linktr.ee/mariamison_