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It Must Be Good Grief
Season 2, Ep. 8
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Episode Transcript (provided by Riverside - forgive any errors)
Summary:
In this episode, I explore the complex nature of grief through personal experiences I've encountered over the past year or so. I reflect on the multiple deaths/transitions that led me to this point in my journey. I discuss the death of our cat, my grandmother, the challenge of ending a long-term marriage as well as the death of Self. Through these stories, I outline griefs as an integral part of love and personal growth. It's likely my most personal episode to date.
Key Points:
- Grief is part of love
- The loss of a pet is not something to be overlooked
- Being present during a loved one's transition is a deep act of love.
- The end of a marriage is a special kind of grief.
- The death of Self requires powerful internal work and ongoing challenges
- Grief is not something to be avoided; it can be a teacher.
Helpful Links:
- Hire me to speak or buy some merch! - HOLIDAY 2024 SALE use code "SKULLGERBIL"
- Community for Black Gifted Adults - Our Wild Minds - Use code "Sheldon"
- Umbrella US - Non-profit focused on neurodivergent advocacy
- ND Connect - Online community for neurodivergent people
- Submit your Questions or Misunderstood Insights
Intro and Outro music provided by byrdversion1 - "It Couldn't Be" from the album Nevermore
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34:10||Season 2, Ep. 12Episode Transcript (provided by Riverside - forgive any errors)Follow I Must Be BUGN on IGSummaryIn this episode, I discuss the recent proposal by RFK Jr. to create a database of autistic individuals, expressing deep concern over the implications of such a move. He emphasizes the importance of community, advocacy, and understanding the complexities surrounding autism and neurodivergence. Sheldon calls for collective action against systemic oppression and misinformation, urging listeners to remain vocal and supportive of marginalized communities.Key Points:The proposal to create a national database tracking autistic people is extremely problematicI acknowledge my privilege in choosing a neurodivergent label with less stigmaThe increase in autism diagnoses is due to better awareness, not an epidemic.This should be yet another reason we start taking data-privacy more seriouslyThe narrative around autism needs to be more inclusive and expansiveHelpful Links:What You Need to Know About the New Autism Data Registry2019 Study on ADHD Rates by Race/Ethnic GroupBackground of LebensbornHire me to speak or buy some merch!Community for Black Gifted Adults - Our Wild Minds - Use code "Sheldon"Umbrella US - Non-profit focused on neurodivergent advocacyND Connect - Online community for neurodivergent peopleSubmit your Questions or Misunderstood InsightsIntro and Outro music provided by byrdversion1 - "It Couldn't Be" from the album Nevermore
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32:50||Season 2, Ep. 10Episode Transcript (provided by Riverside - forgive any errors)Follow I Must Be BUGN on IGIn this episode, I reflect on some things we need to leave in 2024 and some key things we need to make sure we're honing in on for 2025. I discuss things like patriarchy, the importance of internal validation, and the need for authentic community connections. How healthy boundaries and the power of imagination in creating new ways of being change our future? Join me as I think critically about our roles in perpetuating and dismantling oppressive systems while embracing our own power and authenticity moving forward into the new year.Key Points:Why we must name patriarchy and accept that it harms and is perpetuated by more than "men"Healthy boundaries are true game-changers for lifeImagining new ways of being can truly be an act of resistance and disrupt systems of oppressionHelpful Links:Lecrae interviews Jason WilsonAdam Grant interviews Loretta J. RossHire me to speak or buy some merch!Community for Black Gifted Adults - Our Wild Minds - Use code "Sheldon"Umbrella US - Non-profit focused on neurodivergent advocacyND Connect - Online community for neurodivergent peopleSubmit your Questions or Misunderstood InsightsIntro and Outro music provided by byrdversion1 - "It Couldn't Be" from the album Nevermore