Good Grief

A trailer for the upcoming podcast series Good Grief coming Spring 2022

In this first episode, which was recorded in March 2022 I talk to Lynne Booker. Lynne has been working as a counsellor/therapist since 2004 in all sorts of different contexts, through the NHS, with a hospice, and more recently with the Refugee Council working with refugees and asylum seekers. Lynne initially trained at the University of East Anglia, doing a masters in Person Centred Counselling and wrote a dissertation on complicated grief. Lynne has a Jewish background and became Christian when she was 19. She was born in London but grew up in Reading and now resides in Lincolnshire with her husband. She also enjoys life drawing, being a mother (although the kids have flown the nest) and fairly recently become a grandmother. We talked about a lot in this first episode and therefore it’s an unnaturally long. We started off talking about Lynne’s training in Person Centred Counselling, why she wanted to become a therapist and her own personal journey which includes a break up with a partner she was very much in love with and the loss of her parents, which triggered a reevaluation of her relationship with them.We also talked about the importance of meaningful tradition around grief, a loss of family ties and sense of community, refugees feeling war including PTSD, the different stages of your children growing up and a sense of loss of the person they were as we celebrate who they become and surprisingly we talked about football grief and masculinity plus Lord of The Rings! A trigger warning that there is lengthy conversation about child loss, miscarriage and still birth.The episode include much more besides. Please do leave a comment if you have any feedback at all.

This episode I’m talking to Anita Nayyar about her experiences with miscarriage.Anita is a social psychologist originally from Croydon, South London and now resides in Peterborough, Cambridgeshire. Her job has two halves to it, one half looks at hate speech and its effects and how to counter hateful narratives, the other half is one to one work which includes mentoring and counselling (Anita is also trained in psychodynamic counselling) and works with people who are leaving gangs. Anita is of mixed heritage, her father was Indian and her mother is English. In her spare time she enjoys writing poetry (occasionally performing it as well), cycling, swimming, kayaking and attending cultural events.This is an important one, well, hopefully all the topics we cover in the podcast are, but this one specifically that perhaps don’t understand how deeply affecting a miscarriage can be and how society at large can pretend that it’s insignificant. There is some lightness to the start of this conversation even though it’s a heavy subject and Anita I talk in a very matter of fact way. It’s worth saying that we have been friends for a while now so we talk to each other in a very relaxed manner. Subjects covered include complications of grief surrounding miscarriage (the shame and taboo surrounding it), a lot of this episode concentrates on the difficulty but necessity of embracing your pain, Anita talks about the book “Unattended Sorrow”and what happens when you try to ignore pain and try to get on with things and how transformative it can be if you do engage with it, the mixed care and understanding from pretty much everyone, garden burial for the foetus, the sensitive and care given by the hospital chaplin, we briefly talk about the loss of her father at an early age and the appreciation of having such a good dad. Listen out for the microphone punch just after this bit, nonverbal expression through crying and the shame around it and support from friends and support and advice she has given to others going through a similar experience. We also question is any walks of society deal with grief better than ourselves? From a Muslim perspective but also what’s happening in a secular society.If you or anyone else is affected by this subject, Anita has suggested two support groups:https://www.tommys.org/baby-loss-support/miscarriage-information-and-support/support-after-miscarriagehttps://www.miscarriageassociation.org.uk

This episode focuses on parental loss at an early age as well as loss through Alzheimer’s. This week I talk to Theo Tramblinas, a good friend of mine who lost his dad when he was 12 years old and is currently looking after his mum, along with his siblings Alex and Marita, as their mother has Alzheimer's. Theo is from Sussex but currently resides in Surrey with his wife Ania which is where we recorded this conversation in April 2022. Fulled through childhood curiosity and having lots of questions about nature Theo started his own business called Nature Dayz teaching kids about nature and making the outdoors more accessible. Warning, there is a fair amount of swearingThis is chat rambles A LOT and goes all over the shop on many different subjects but the main crux of this podcast is the grief he experienced losing his dad at such a you age. Tears happen during this point, I just want to prepare you as this may be a trigger for some of you. We also talk about the experience of losing someone whilst they’re still here, in the case of his mother losing her memories and recollection of who Theo is. But we started talking about how we meet first, in India many moons ago…At the end I mention the Life Changes Trust which you can find more about here: https://www.lifechangestrust.org.uk

This episode deals with the immediacy of death, bodies and grief. I talk to Anna Bunten who is an advanced nurse practitioner who started training in 1997. From there she started working initially in a hospital and then later in an out of hours service where she provided a mixed roll of both nursing (district nursing at night including palliative care) and out of hours emergency care. She is now settled in a GP practice in Peterborough and has been a nurse partner there ever since. Due to the nature of Anna's work death is discussed a fair amount and the immediacy of after care. The conversation does meander a fair amount and we discuss personal loss, what grief looks like in a professional setting, long term grief, grief ceremonies, specifically Scottish grief tending and the necessity of grief being witnessed which was a very powerful part of the conversation. Finally we talked about being remembered, ourselves and our loved ones, how we’d like to be remembered but also how other live on through us.There’s a few clumsy questions in here, obvious ones that I’m a little bit embarrassed about to tell you the truth but Anna’s answers were too good to leave out so I had to leave my embarrassing self right in there...

This podcast was recorded in early May 2023 with Emma Spearing who is an Actor and Writer based in Cambridgeshire. Emma has lived in various places across the UK as well as travelled for a few years in Asia but she’s originally from Essex.I met Emma purely coincidentally whilst working on a shoot in Cambridge. Well actually my good friend and photographer extraordinaire Neil Hepworth met her and talked about this podcast with her, and she told us both about her own journey of loss. Emma lost her identical twin sister Charlie to cancer 9 years ago and she talked about her unique experience of losing someone that is essentially a part of you, a mirror image, literally a soul mate and someone that she was inseparable from for most of her childhood.I had a bit of cold so apologies for the sniffing and gurglesI was really struck by how I’d never considered how close a bond twins would have, especially identical twins. I don’t want to spoil what is said about that here but what Emma said was really quite profound, and eye opening too. She covers what it was like growing up as a twin and how different milestones affected them and how they supported each. Importantly she talks about what it was like to care for her at the end and how she processed and continues to process the loss of her. Emma talks about how other people cared for her in the immediate aftermath of the loss of Charlie quite beautifully. What worked for her and what didn’t. It’ll probably not be surprising to most listeners that the things that helped were small and considered. She also addresses the thing that I keep on bringing up, building tradition and experiences around grief. The conversation gets quite emotional when we talk about her then 18 month old daughter saying goodbye to her mother.Since Charlie’s death Emma has since written a play about her experience of the loss of her sister called WHOLE (WHOLE) which she has toured in the past, and I believe will be touring again which we talk about in the podcast. The purpose of which, much like this podcast, is to help those that are grieving. This episode ends not with a wrap up from me but a song beautifully written and sung by Charlie herself.When we recorded the podcast we discovered that we had both travelled India but what was almost freaky was that we stayed at the very same guesthouse in Bagsu called (I think) Sky Pie. Or Pie in The Sky. Anyway, it was our first discovery of Banoffee Pie and what a transformative experience that was.