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My OCD hit a breaking point on a Netflix set. This is what happened next.

OCD hijacked Rachel's life. Perfectionism and obsessive thinking had always been a part of her life, but a new relationship gave OCD something to latch onto — and it escalated fast. Her thoughts spiraled, her sense of control collapsed, and the disorder began dictating every decision. What followed was a sudden exit from her job on a Netflix set, a stay in a psychiatric facility, and thoughts that scared her enough to realize she couldn’t manage it on her own anymore.


In this episode, Rachel Immraj shares her OCD journey. She shares how deep OCD pulled her and how she, finally, got help. Rachel also tells us about her new documentary, An Unquiet Mind, that follows multiple people with OCD. She directed it to show others the dark side of OCD, a side that almost swallowed her whole.


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