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Get to know OCD
What It's REALLY Like To Live With OCD
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Alix Behar joins the Get to Know OCD podcast to share a raw, unfiltered look at her life with obsessive-compulsive disorder. She takes us through her personal journey — from the crippling fears that once controlled her life like washing her hands until they bled and avoiding doorknobs, to the life-changing moment she sought therapy and took the first step toward recovery.
Alix opens up about the misconceptions surrounding OCD, how its themes can shift unexpectedly, and the profound impact it had on her relationships. She also dives into the transformative power of exposure response therapy and how it helped her reclaim her future. Her story is an honest, eye-opening glimpse into the daily struggles and victories of living with OCD.
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Chapters:
0:00 Intro
2:10 Meet Alix
2:51 “I thought I was the only one”
3:55 What to do if you’re hesitant about going to therapy
4:48 Life after therapy
6:40 How OCD can affect faith
9:09 OCD can change subtypes
10:46 When Alix first noticed OCD symptoms
13:15 How Alix manages a relationship while having OCD
16:50 The journey of finding the right therapists
18:58 Alix’s emetophobia experience
21:50 OCD is exhausting
25:17 Why Alix shares her story so openly
26:35 Did Alix question therapy?
28:05 OCD makes you question your future
30:15 Accepting you won’t get all the answers OCD wants
34:56 Advice from Alix
37:34 Outro
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