Fearlessly Failing with Lola Berry

The week that was in La La Land:auditionsbuying prop cigarettes for an audition guide dog school updates Summer LA hikes Big LoveLola x

Purpose, Panic & Creative Pivotsthis chat is about celebrating changing your goals knowing that you can outgrow your purpose and goals trusting you're on the right path and backing yourselfI hope you love it! Let me know what you'd like the next solo episode to be aboutBig LoveLola x

Righto - this week form LA:Randomly did a seggie on Jimmy Kimmel yesterday! All happened by lucky chance!Guide dog pup training, we have a teenage now, Lennon has grown so much!In fact, you'll get some puppy asmr! That 70's audition, haven't heard back yet but trusting the process.Have a new hooby - drawing, and i'm making them Western themed drawings.I also did an oracle card pull and Matt pulled you a lucky card too. Big LoveLola x

We hit 900 eps! WILD!!Thank you for making it happen!!Big LoveLola x

WOOOHOOOO!!!We made it to 900 episodes!! Matt jumped on the pod to talk all things 900 eps and almost 7 years of Fearlessly Failing!!Thank you listener for making this pod possible!Big LoveLola x

Righto, this week’s been a goodie. I had a really fun audition that was set in the 70’s and called for a New York accent. I was lucky, I had a week to work on this script (usually you get a day or 2), so I worked with my dialect coach to get some help with the NY accent. Building the set and costume was so much fun! I didn’t realise that a lot of my wardrobe can transform into 70’s boho pretty easily. I even wore my Grandpa’s watch from 1971 and my Nan’s jewellery to really get into the era. My Nan’s ring especially felt like it suited this character (I posted a couple of pics onto my Substack feed of the look and vibe I went for).Here’s the truth though, over the past month. I’ve put up a handful of auditions I truly thought I’d be a good fit for. I’ve given them my all, and sent them off into casting ether. I’m sure I’ve mentioned this before, but if you dont get the gig, you dont get feedback, you dont even get a “No” you just get silence, nothing, an air sandwich. So this week I really grappled with self doubt before I sent this audition off. I had a big old cry in my therapy session and I learnt that most of my fears are total bullshit. But even as I hit send yesterday, I still felt like a failure, I still doubted myself, even though I know I gave it everything. I have no idea if that feeling ever leaves you as an artist, but one thing I do know about myself is that, even with bucket loads of doubt, I still submitted the tape, so to me, that’s a win. Moving forward, despite the fear.So maybe as creatives that’s all we need to do, feel the fear and do it anyway…Big LoveLola xp.s i also did an oracle card reading for you at the very end of this diary ep! Hope it resonates with you, there's some goodies in there!

108 DAYS - why its a biggieI've almost hit 108 days of meditation and my naturopath Jad reminded me that its a spiritually significant number.. here's a couple of reasons why: In yoga, 108 is a sacred number that represents wholeness, transformation, and our connection to the universe. Its meaning has been woven through centuries of spiritual tradition, reminding us that every breath, movement, and intention is part of something greater.A traditional mala holds 108 beads, guiding mantra meditation one prayer at a time, and many yogis honor life's transitions by practicing 108 Sun Salutations—a moving meditation that invites release, renewal, and presence.There is also a beautiful cosmic connection: the average distance from Earth to the Sun is about 108 times the Sun's diameter, and the average distance from Earth to the Moon is about 108 times the Moon's diameter. While these are approximate relationships, they have long inspired the idea that the same patterns found in the heavens are reflected within us.Whether you see 108 as sacred geometry, ancient wisdom, or a symbolic reminder of our place in the cosmos, it invites us to return to ourselves—again and again—with intention, devotion, and an open heart.So if this resonates with you, how about you set the goal of a micro habit for 108 days consecutively? Let me know how you go! Big LoveLola

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Righto - today's ep is 12 QUESTIONS TO ASK YOUR PARTNERWe have hit a massive milestone today: Episode 900! 🎉 And to celebrate, I am bringing you an incredibly special, deeply personal, and high-vibe episode. If you’ve been following along on Instagram, you already know the massive news… after almost nine beautiful years together, we officially got ENGAGED earlier this year! 💍✨Stepping into this brand-new chapter has us reflecting on everything it takes to go the distance as a couple. Love isn't a destination; it's a constant, beautiful discovery. Whether you are on date number three, navigating the early years, or sitting at year nine like us, the secret to keeping the spark alive is staying curious about the person sitting across from you.So in today's episode, we are skipping the small talk and diving straight into the deep end. Grab your partner, pour a cozy drink, and use these 12 deep-diving questions from today’s show to map out your own path, strengthen your connection, and see how well you really know each other:This was such a fun one to record, but shout out and thank you to Teddy Bell from https://www.marriedbyateddy.com/ who kindly gifted us these conversation cards.Here are the 12 questions we unpacked today:If we could live anywhere in the world for a year after the wedding, where would you choose and why?What does our "perfect ordinary day" look like to you?If our love story were a film, what genre would it be?What part of our future excites you the most right now?If we wrote a letter to ourselves to open in 10 years, what would you hope it says?What personal dream of yours feels closer now that we're getting married?If we had no limits: time, fear, money - what would you most want us to experience together?How do you imagine us growing - individually and together - over the next 5 years?What does "a good life" actually mean to you?What do you hope never changes about us?Tell me something about you that people often misunderstand?What part of your personality are you most proud of?This Week's Listener Challenge: Don't read these questions to each other ahead of time! It was so fun flying blind in these questions, less thinking and more just being in the moment. Sit down tonight, hit record on your phone just for yourselves, and answer them completely raw and unedited. You might be surprised by what you learn! We absolutely loved it! If you liked this ep and you want another just like it, let me know, there's a lot more questions in this deck of cards.Connect with the Show: Enjoyed this episode? Hit Subscribe and leave a 5-star review! Share the ep with your mates. That helps the poddy grow so much! Share your breakthrough moments from today's questions on Instagram DMs and tag me at @yummololaberryBig Love Lola x