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Bitch Is A Bad Word: A Domestic Violence Podcast on Healing and Empowerment

(Re-Release) Bitch Sesh: Am I In An Abuseive Relationship? | Malou

Season 2.5, Ep. 55.5

This episode of Bitch Sesh originally aired on October 16, 2025.


If you or someone you love is experiencing domestic violence, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or visit www.thehotline.org


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In this episode of B!tch Is a Bad Word’s: B!tch Sesh, Lindsay sits down with Malou.


Malou found B!tch Is a Bad Word the same way so many of us do, scrolling through social media late at night, trying to make sense of the question that changes everything: What the fck is this relationship I’m in?*


Through the endless carousel of “relationship advice” and trauma content, she began piecing together what was really happening behind closed doors. What started as confusion became clarity, and what once felt like isolation turned into community.


In this conversation, Malou shares how discovering language around micro-aggressions, narrative abuse, and subtle forms of control helped her name what she was experiencing and start rebuilding her sense of self.


More than that, she talks about the ripple effect that happens when survivors speak up, how one story shared online can become the reason another woman finally sees the truth in her own.


Inside This Episode:

• Using social media to decode emotional and psychological abuse

• The “what the f*ck is this relationship?” moment that changes everything

• How micro-aggressions and narrative abuse keep victims doubting themselves

• The ripple effect of storytelling in survivor communities

• Finding clarity and connection through shared experience


Why this episode matters:


Malou’s story is a reminder that healing often starts in the quiet scroll, in the comment sections, and in the courage to say something’s not right here. It’s about how awareness spreads, one post, one podcast, and one story at a time.


If you’ve ever questioned your reality, doubted your instincts, or turned to the internet looking for answers, this one’s for you.


Trigger Warning: This episode includes discussion of emotional abuse, manipulation, and coercive control. Please take care while listening.


We’ve got your back, Besties.


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If you or someone you love is experiencing domestic violence, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or visit thehotline.org.

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