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#42 What Children Learn From How We Love with Nikki Allen
Season 1, Ep. 42
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In this episode of Becoming Secure with Magsmindset, I’m joined by Nikki Allen: singer, songwriter, and author of Loved You, Hated You. Nikki’s story instantly intrigued me: what began as a song became a screenplay, and eventually transformed into a novel rooted in emotional truth.
We talk about what it’s really like to lose yourself inside a relationship, how subtle abuse can look when there are no bruises, and parental influence.
Nikki ends with a powerful reminder: your life is a journey like a quilt — messy on the back, beautiful when you look at the full picture.
✨ Learn more about Nikki and her book here: https://officialnikkiallen.com/
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