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We Are All Haunted By What Resides In The Shadows (part 1) w/ Pepe Bandit #37

Season 2, Ep. 37

In this episode of Back on the Grind, Pepe Bandit discusses the transformative power of the shadow. Drawing from his background in life coaching, cognitive behavioral therapy, trauma recovery & more, he aims to help others understand the shadow correctly. He discusses the differences between repression & suppression & how shadow material can accumulate over time & unconsciously influence our behavior & relationships.


Pepe delves into the concept of exploring the parts of ourselves that we often deny or refuse to acknowledge. He shares his own journey & personal anecdotes to illustrate how these shadow aspects actually manifest in our thoughts & behaviors, highlighting the duality of human nature—our capacity for both compassion & cruelty. The episode emphasizes the importance of self-awareness & acceptance of all facets of our identity for personal growth & healthier interactions with others. The episode also touches on the relevance of these themes in the context of Halloween, a time traditionally associated with hauntings & the unseen.


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HIGHLIGHTS

  • We all have hauntings that we can never fully escape
  • Your shadow contains unwanted or “unhelpful” parts of ourselves we deny
  • The shadow is not inherently evil; it's part of us
  • Shadow material often stems from childhood experiences
  • Repression vs. suppression
  • How shadow material can manifest unconsciously in our lives
  • Shadow work requires confronting uncomfortable truths about ourselves
  • Engaging in shadow work is essential for personal and societal growth
  • "Demon Song" by PT Burnem is played



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