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dysfunctional family roles – part 1: decoding the dynamics of dysfunction [preview]

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Every family has its secrets—those untold stories that shape us in ways we don't always see. What hidden roles within your family have shaped you? Are there patterns you're living out without even realizing it?


Welcome to the first episode of a series that dives deep into the forces at work in our families—those powerful, often overlooked dynamics that mold our lives. We’ll be digging into the deep-rooted patterns and roles that drive our behaviors and emotions, the ones that set the stage for how we relate to others and ourselves as we grow. Together, we'll unravel the complex ideas behind family systems theory and Internal Family Systems. I'll give you a fresh lens to view your own life and relationships. As we move through this series, you'll not only spot these dynamics but learn how to change them and finally break the cycle of dysfunction. Don't miss this journey to uncover and rethink the roles that have been quietly directing your life.


RESOURCES: No Bad Parts by Richard Schwartz

 

TIME STAMPS:


00:00 – 32:02.01: PART 1 (Introduction to the series and dysfunctional family systems, defining and discussing their dynamics, and exploring Family Systems Theory and Internal Family Systems Theory by Richard Schwartz.)


32:02.01 – 01:00:20.90: PART 2 (Exploration of core IFS concepts: Self, Managers, Exiles, Firefighters, and their relevance to family roles; identifying signs of dysfunction like conflict, secrecy, and emotional suppression and over-expression; introduction to the purpose of roles; strategies for recognition and healing.)


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The information contained in this podcast episode is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not intended as a substitute for treatment or consultation with a licensed mental health professional.

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