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dreams and tarot: embracing the wild within [premium exclusive]
Welcome, my deep-diving Premium Submarines, another edition of this Patreon-exclusive series, where we delve into the art of tending to dream symbols and the exploration of the psyche through the wisdom of the tarot. As I’ve previously mentioned, I’m currently in the process of gaining certifications in both Dream Tending and Jungian Tarot Reading, courtesy of my studies under previous BFTB guest Dr. Stephen Aizenstat and Dr. Ken James.
In this episode, we dive into the dreams of Premium Submarine, Cameron. Together, we’ll will dive into the depths of a dream that blurs the lines between the everyday and the animalistic, revealing the universal archetypes that reside in our shared subconscious. We delve into a narrative that starts with a simple visit to a fast-food restaurant and escalates into a symbolic encounter with the energies of the deer and the coyote—representations of vulnerability and wildness that resonate with all of us. As we walk through the dimly lit streets of Cameron’s dream, we confront the primal instincts that govern our lives, from the protective urges that flare up in moments of perceived danger to the tranquil paths we seek for safety. Tune in to explore the common threads that bind our dreams to the collective psyche and discover how our innermost fears and desires play out in the theater of the mind.
This is not just an interpretation of Cameron’s experiences, but a chance for all of us to reflect on the symbols and themes that appear in our own dreams. Join me in this unique dive into the subconscious, exclusive to our Premium Submarine community.
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Disclaimer: The information contained in this podcast episode is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not intended as a substitute for treatment or consultation with a licensed mental health professional.
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