This week Ash sits down with Dave McGrath, a 47 year old carpenter and father who recently celebrated three years of sobriety. For a period of about nine months before rehab, Dave was living out of his car, seeing his daughter once every month or two, and losing himself completely to what he calls the alcoholic insanity. His rock bottom came in a friend's garage, staring at an extension ladder and a rope, before something in him snapped awake enough to call a rehab.
In this raw and honest conversation, Dave takes Ash through the chaos of early sobriety attempts that did not stick, the shame of losing contact with his family and his daughter, and the strangers along the way who quietly helped him find his footing, including a chance encounter on a footpath that led him to treatment. He also opens up about an unexpected and profound spiritual awakening in a church that changed the course of his recovery, and what it has taken to rebuild trust with the people he hurt along the way. This is a story about hope, redemption and never giving up.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introducing Dave McGrath
03:21 The Photo: A Visitation Day With His Daughter
04:16 The Unmanageability of Alcoholic Insanity
05:55 The First Drink as a Child
09:30 Hating Who He Saw in the Mirror
10:41 The Craving He Could Never Control
15:14 Failed Attempts and Dry Spells
18:52 Cold Water Plunges at 2am
19:33 Rock Bottom: The Rope in the Garage
21:31 A Stranger on the Street Who Showed Him the Way
23:21 A Daughter Waiting at the Window
26:03 From Dry Drunk to Actually Working the Program
44:51 A Spiritual Awakening at Church
47:57 Daily Conscious Contact and Letting Go of Rage
50:21 Three Non-Negotiables for a Happy, Authentic Life
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