My guest this week is Katrina Loewe, a mum of three boys who lived 47 years in internal chaos before a spiritual awakening turned her life around. On the outside, Katrina had everything, a beautiful family, a beautiful home, and a life many would envy. On the inside, she was drowning in perfectionism, shame she had carried since her teens, and a growing disconnection from herself that eventually led her through four hospitalisations in the space of nine and a half weeks.
Katrina shares what it was like to hit a point where nothing external could fix her anymore, the moment she finally reached out for real help, and how meditation, connection, and a complete willingness to change gave her a life she had never known was possible. She talks openly about perfectionism, people pleasing, the shame of being away from her children while seeking treatment, and what it means to finally feel at peace in your own life.
This is a moving conversation about what transformation can look like when it has nothing to do with rock bottom in the traditional sense, and everything to do with finally coming home to yourself.
Episode chapters:
00:00 Introducing Katrina Loewe
05:14 The Photo: Hiding Behind the Smile
08:52 A Wholesome Childhood and the First Signs of Not Fitting In
13:14 A Difficult Family Holiday and Years of Carrying Shame
26:20 Becoming a Stepmum, IVF, and Chasing \"I'll Be Happy When\"
30:52 Suffocating Behind a Perfect Life
33:22 Losing Her Father and the Grief She Never Processed
36:43 The Trip Around Australia and the Start of the Unravelling
38:04 When Drinking Crept In
40:53 Four Hospitals in Nine and a Half Weeks
46:13 The Instagram Post That Changed Everything
51:20 What Her Relationship with Alcohol Looks Like Today
57:19 Releasing the Shame and Living Without Apology
01:00:16 Three Non-Negotiables for a Happy, Authentic Life
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