{"version":"1.0","type":"rich","provider_name":"Acast","provider_url":"https://acast.com","height":250,"width":700,"html":"<iframe src=\"https://embed.acast.com/$/6775cb68499663105e17ae63/69c89aadb9e4e973bf652033?\" frameBorder=\"0\" width=\"700\" height=\"250\"></iframe>","title":"The Forensic Scientist Who Investigated 160 Murders & Lost Himself in the Process: Ruben Miller","thumbnail_width":200,"thumbnail_height":200,"thumbnail_url":"https://open-images.acast.com/shows/6775cb68499663105e17ae63/1774754634605-e7c9a5c4-a40a-411e-828a-a48071699167.jpeg?height=200","description":"<p>Ruben Miller spent 22 years as a forensic scientist in New Zealand, working on more than 160 homicide investigations. This is the story of what it cost him.</p><p><br></p><p>In this episode we talk about what it actually feels like to walk into a homicide scene, the forensic principle that guides every investigation, the case that still hasn't left him, and what two decades of witnessing violence quietly does to a person. </p><p><br></p><p>We also get into PTSD, therapy, what resilience actually means versus what we tell ourselves it means, and how Ruben found compassion for people most of us would write off entirely.</p><p><br></p><p>Ruben's book The Blood Says Otherwise is out now at all good bookstores and online.</p><p><br></p><p>Steve and Seamus are proud to be dressed by our friends at Barkers Clothing.</p><p><br></p><p>⚠️ This episode contains discussion of homicide, child death, trauma, and PTSD. Please take care.</p><p>If anything in this episode brings something up for you:</p><p><br></p><p>Mental health — Need to talk? Free call or text 1737, any time.</p><p>Depression &amp; anxiety — Lifeline: 0800 543 354</p><p>Domestic violence — Are You OK: 0800 456 789</p><p>In a crisis right now — call 111</p>","author_name":"Steven Holloway & Seamus Marten"}