{"version":"1.0","type":"rich","provider_name":"Acast","provider_url":"https://acast.com","height":250,"width":700,"html":"<iframe src=\"https://embed.acast.com/$/6515527d3d898a0011b410e3/6a03bcf637a1e7308d33624a?\" frameBorder=\"0\" width=\"700\" height=\"250\"></iframe>","title":"90 - I Miss Who I Used To Be: How Survival Mode Slowly Changes You","description":"<p>Sometimes the hardest part about addiction…. is realising how much you have changed too.</p><p><br></p><p>In this deeply personal episode, Amanda opens up about the grief of losing yourself in survival mode.</p><p><br></p><p>The anxiety.</p><p>The hypervigilance.</p><p>The exhaustion.</p><p>The version of you that slowly disappeared while trying to hold everything together.</p><p><br></p><p>Because addiction doesn’t just impact the person struggling.</p><p><br></p><p>It changes the people around them too.</p><p><br></p><p>🎧 In this episode, we cover:</p><p><br></p><ul><li>How survival mode slowly changes you</li><li>The grief of losing yourself in addiction</li><li>Why hypervigilance becomes your “normal”</li><li>The hidden emotional exhaustion partners carry</li><li>Why you may not recognise yourself anymore</li><li>The difference between your identity and your survival adaptations</li><li>Rebuilding self-trust and reconnecting with yourself</li><li>Why life is not supposed to feel like constant survival mode</li></ul><p><br></p><p><br></p><p>You didn’t lose yourself because you were weak.</p><p>You lost parts of yourself trying to survive something really hard for a really long time.</p><p><br></p><p>The version of you that exists in survival mode… is not who you are.</p><p>It’s an adaptation.</p><p><br></p><p>And underneath it all?</p><p>You are still there.</p><p><br></p><p>So if you’re quietly thinking: “God… I miss myself…”</p><p><br></p><p>The waitlist for <strong>Pathway to Wellness</strong> is open if you want to find out more.</p><p><br></p><p>Amanda has also opened some private “friendly chat” spaces to talk it through with you and support you to take your next smallest step.</p><p><br></p><p>👉 <a href=\"https://www.addictionmakesthree.com/programwaitlist\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\"><strong>Join the Waitlist</strong></a><strong> for the Pathway to Wellness Program</strong></p><p>👉 <a href=\"https://addictionmakesthree.as.me/friendlychat\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\"><strong>book in a friendly chat</strong></a><strong> to talk it through</strong></p><p><br></p><p>Private and confidential. No pressure. Just support.</p><p><br></p><p>You were never supposed to carry this much for this long.</p><p>And you deserve to live your life too.</p><p><br></p><p>And when you are off the addiction roller coaster, and living your life, you're better for you, your family and your loved one and you can lead the way for change in your family.</p><p><br></p><p>If you’re ready for support to create real change, you don’t have to do this on your own.</p><p><br></p><p>👉 <a href=\"https://www.addictionmakesthree.com/programwaitlist\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\"><strong>Join the Waitlist</strong></a><strong> for the Pathway to Wellness Program, or</strong><a href=\"https://addictionmakesthree.as.me/friendlychat\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\"><strong> book in a friendly chat</strong></a><strong> with me where we can talk it through and I can suggest the next best smallest step forwards for you.</strong></p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p><br></p><p><strong>Connect on Instagram:</strong> <a href=\"https://www.instagram.com/addictionmakesthree/\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\" target=\"_blank\">@addictionmakesthree</a></p>","author_name":"Amanda Lockyer"}