If Thou Dislik'st What Thou First Light'st On
-Dean Young fr First Course in Turbulence
I had come to the house, in a cave of trees,
I had dreamed of the perfect gray pants,
I have a life that did not become,
a young sister made of glass.
I have done it again.
I like a church, I like a cowl,
I like the look of agony.
I love the old melodious lays,
I love it when they demonstrate the oxygen
masks,
never messing up their hair.
I met the Bishop on the road,
In a coign of the cliff between high and low,
In a dark time,
Among wolves and periwinkles,
In a station of the metro,
In Breughel's great painting, The Kermess.
Indeed I must confess,
Indigo, magenta, color of ghee,
what the hell is the color of ghee?
In June amid the golden fields,
In some unused lagoon, some nameless bay,
In spite of all the learned say,
In the depths of the Greyhound station,
In this world, this isle of dreams,
Intimations of mortality,
In unexpected infancy,
In vain, in vain—the all composing hours.
Yadda yadda yadda.
I saw the best minds of my generation et
cetera,
I saw spiders marching through the air
but let's skip this part, okay?
The usual taste of liquor never brewed,
the usual It is June, it is June,
it is ten years since we rowed,
it is 12:20 in New York a Friday
but seems it out of battle I escaped
and now I wander lonely as a cloud.
I was angry with a friend,
I went into the public ‘ouse for a pint o’ beer,
I went to the Garden of Love
but I wonder, do you feel today as I do
caught in an index's apparatus of a thousand
versions of myself but not sure I even exist?
Dawns and hangovers and phone calls,
nothing but silence on the other end.
All this fog, a jar in Tennessee, torches
going out. Go down any road far enough
and you'll come to a slaughterhouse,
but keep going and you'll reach the sea.
Mentions:
Sarah Kendzior: The Last American Road Trip
Lindsay Mack : Tarot of the Wild Soul
Jezmina Von Thiele : Romanistan
Britton Boyd : Invoking Witchcraft
Lindsay Hunter : I'm a Writer But
Brittany Hailor : Animal You'll Surely Become
Lacy Crawford : Notes on Silencing
Julia Fine : The Upstairs House
MC Schmidt : How to Steal a Train
Charlie Claire Burgess : Queer Devotion
Althaea Sebastiani : Rust of the Nail
Good people doing good things ---> Random Acts' Lantern Fund, How to Help MN Master List , How to Perform an Act of Kindness Locally
INARA, MAP, Islamic Relief for Palestine, The Ghassan Abu Sittah Children's Fund
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**Hey hey, btw, all those do gooders I link to? They have no idea who I am and have nothing to do with me (and I like it that way). I just think they're neat.
***My sounds and music comes from Epidemic Sound.
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