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GUILT – BROWN EDITION

Season 1, Ep. 3

Since my mum is my biggest hater towards my podcast, and I’ll post it anyway, todays episode is quite special to me, and I hope you can understand or relate to some of the guilt I feel as a result of leaving home; being outspoken and putting myself first as a brown person.


Having to put your own needs second and staying compliant to your parents/ societies expectations is not a fair way to live, and the guilt which follows can be awfully painful. 


Tell a friend to tell a friend, ENJOY! 

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