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Floundering in Failure

Ep. 56
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Have you ever caught yourself in a spiral of self-criticism and negativity? That's where I found myself in this episode, battling with the guilt of missed work commitments and the exhaustion in the aftermath of COVID-19.


In this deeply personal reflection, I talk about my struggle with high expectations for myself, my battle with emotional perfectionism since childhood, and how I've grappled with the fear of disappointing others. It's been a tough journey, but I've had some pretty amazing people by my side, and I want to take a moment to appreciate them and the accomplishments I've made along the way.


I also share the challenges of healthcare, the absurdity of American healthcare costs, and some frustrating experiences trying to get medication for a three-week trip to Europe. Plus, I dive into my new consulting venture, Kink Doula, and the scheduling issues that have come up.

But it's not all hardship and struggle. There are moments of self-love and acceptance, of recognizing the beauty in our imperfections and the miracles of our lives. Join me as I take a moment to step back, breathe, and appreciate the miracle of being alive.



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